𝙵𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝙵𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚗 | JEONGCHAN

𝚝𝚠𝚘

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     I opened my eyes to the realization I was still on the floor. Crap, I fell asleep. I groaned lifting myself up, a roaring headache greeting me. I grabbed my phone from my pocket looking at the time. It was almost past eleven am. Meaning I was most likely going to be late for work.

     I sighed and dragged myself to my once shared room. Reality of yesterdays events still settling in when I looked at the pictures stood on my bedside. It had Felix, Hyunjin and I all in the photo at the beach two years ago. I walked over picking up the photo and immeadeatly putting it face down.

     As the picture meet the nighstand again my phone rang. The caller id read "Sung", my coworker, and friend, from work.

"Hello?"

"Yeah what's up?"

"Boss was wondering where you were"

"Oh" I sighed again "I'll be on my way soon"

"Alright, is there something going on?
You seem pretty down?"

I could hear the concern coating his voice.

"Yeah I" I sat down on the side of my bed "I broke up with Hyunjin yesterday.."

     A huge gasp erupted from him, a long quietness soon following.

"I'm so sorry to hear innie"

"It's not...okay but, I'll live. I'll see you soon"

"Wait! Before you go I can
tell Boss you're not okay"

     I thought about that for a few seconds and accepted the offer.

"Alright I'll tell him, by the way at my place Minho, a couple others and I are gonna sesh it up later today if you know what I mean"

     I could almost hear the smirk on his dumpling face.  "Sung you know I'm not a big fan of weed-"

"I know! But just this once? It really could help ease your mind this once!"

"Fine! I'll join in" I granted out.

     He squealed and thanked me, we said our goodbyes and I got busy with packing Hyunjins things. It took me about three hours to go through all his belongings and pack everything in the box's. Most of that time was occupied by me taking breaks to cry and even throw up a litte.

     I took some time to eat around five pm, digesting food and as well the reality of my situation.

     I'm single. That thought kept appearing in my mind, I couldn't't finish my food, too sick to my stomach and hurt to keep anything down. I drank water the rest of the time.

     I grabbed boxes and put them at the front door. The gifts that were once dropped at the front of the door were gone. Hyunjin or Felix must have picked it up. A rush of anxiety filled my body, a very sudden overwhelming feeling. I dropped the boxes running to the toilet.

     I coughed until what was left in my stomach was out. A couple tears shed from my eyes, the stinging of acid in my throat more prominent.

"Jeongin!" My front door opened and closed. The sound of a familiar squirrel voice filling the apartment.

     I lifted my head from the toilet pushing myself up from it. I quickly flushed it, not wanting to cause concern to Jisung.

"I'm in the bathroom" I said while looking at myself in the mirror.

"Hey," he appeared from around the corner "how are you feeling?"

"I'm okay, just a bit tired, I'm gonna shower could you put the rest of the boxes in the living room out in front of the door please?"

"Of course! I'm down to help in any way possible"

"Thanks" I replied.

     He went out to the living room and I took a quick shower. I occasionally leaned over to vomit in the toilet. The memories of me and Hyunjin making love in here were sickening, was it really ever love?

Am I not good enough?

Am I not pretty enough?

Am I too fat?

     The thoughts of me not being enough consumed my entire self. I brushed them away quickly not wanting to feel more acid burning my already damaged throat.

     I got out the shower getting dressed and doing a simple skin care. I left the bathroom to find Jisung sitting on the couch scrolling through his phone.

"Ready?" He says a huge smile spreading on his face.

"Yeah."

     We walked to his car and made our way to his place. I leaned my head on the door the whole time hoping to distract my raging thoughts with the beautiful city lights.

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