Embracing the Burning Passion

18: Shared

My wolf growled but I immediately reigned her in.

Furry, don't. Please. I said.

But there's him... Our mate.

I know. But you can't do this to me. You can't mark him without my consent. Please don't ruin us.

You've been resisting the matebond! Now, you're doubting our mate! If you won't accept and mark him, I will!

Furry, no! I will try... I will try fixing things with him. Just please... don't do something reckless.

She was silent for minutes before I finally felt her calm. She did not answer but I know she'll no longer harm me or herself now.

"Amara..." Recognition and longing lazed in his tone.

I huffed, my tale wagging. Fucking wagging like a dog. Shit, Furry.

I can't help it when our mate is in front of us!

I took tentative steps toward him, and he did the same, still studying me and holding my gaze. No one dared to break the silence around. Kahit nasa open ground kami, walang nagbalak magsalita. Everyone who stayed are watching, barely breathing in anticipation.

I still have control in my wolf form, but my animalistic behaviors are more dominant. So when Blake finally reached his hands out to me, I sniffed it and licked it suddenly. My eyes widened at my bold move. Licking is almost equivalent to kissing in wolf form! Perhaps August knows about it because he snickered.

"Did you just kiss your mate?" he accused me.

Blake's face broke into a grin as he went closer to me and carressed my fur. My wolf moaned. I moaned, too. Moaned. I fucking moaned. What the hell?

I licked Blake's face and I internally cringed.

Furry, stop doing that!

Our mate smells so nice, Amara!

Damn it. She was enjoying this. She surely is. She's enjoying the control and the freedom. She's basically harassing Blake when I knocked him to the ground to play and kiss him further. I groaned out loud at how foolish I probably looked. A 5'9 footer wolf, acting like a puppy. Not that I don't like it. My wolf and I are one. I feel what she feels, and she feels what I feel. Right now, I am savoring the feeling of being close to my mate. As much as I want to put this all to Furry, but I know this is happening because I am letting her do so. And to my surprise, Blake was enjoying the attention. He was laughing while brushing my fur.

"Amara, stop it. As much as I enjoy your attention in your wolf form, I'll appreciate it more if you'll kiss me, too, in your human form," aniya na nagpatigil pareho sa amin ni Furry.

Blake stared at me, and I stared at his now not-red eyes. He completely caught me off guard when he kissed me just a above my mouth before standing up. I couldn't move. I didn't move a muscle when he did it. He kissed me, and it may be brief, but I felt the warmth. I felt it.

Amara, go fucking mark our mate! I am not letting this man go! Furry growled at me in my head.

I did not answer her, instead stared at my mate, bewildered.

"Come on. I have spare clothes in my office. Let me get you there so you could shift back," aniya na may ngiti sa labi. He stayed beside me while we stared walking towards his office. Him with 2 feet and 2 hands whose one is resting on my back, and me in all 4 paws.

"Gosh. I can't imagine myself doing those things when I find my mate," I heard August rumbled before we left there.

Hindi ko na alam anong nangyari sa mga studyanteng nanood. Lalo na sa mga napag-trip-an ako. There were students who looked at me in awe and fear. I was huge. I know I could dominate a room in my wolf form. Good thing it was a short walk towards his office. I almost couldn't fit in the doorframe because of my size. Blake retrieved his spare clothes before leaving the room for me to shift. Agad kong sinuot ang malaki niyang itim na polo at hindi na sinuot ang jeans dahil hindi rin naman kasya sa akin. Masyadong malaki.

I did not call him when I finished fixing myself. Hinintay ko lang siyang pumasok ulit sa loob ng opisina na nangyari naman pagkatapos ng ilang minuto. He stared at me after seeing me in his polo. I don't know if it's true but they say men has a thing for their woman who uses their top. Based on how Blake reacted upon seeing me with nothing but his polo on, I think the rumors are true. He basically froze while assessing my look like a hawk. It made me feel awkward, not only because of how he stares at me right now, but also because of what happened earlier.

"I'm sorry about earlier," ani ko, pinuputol ang katahimikan.

Muling umangat sa akin ang tingin niya. "Sorry saan?"

Ako naman ang umiwas ng tingin sa hiya. Hindi mawala-wala sa isip ko ang ginawa ng wolf ko kanina.

"Sa ginawa n-namin ni Furry kanina... She had more control than I did because I was in my wolf form. I'm sorry for tackling you to the ground."

A smile formed on his lips.

"So her name is Furry. I like her," saad niya. "She seems so fond of me."

I could feel my embarrassment. Uminit ang mukha ko sa hiya kaya hindi ko siya magawang lingunin.

Realizing my awkwardness, he closed our distance and lifted my chin to look at him. His gentle gaze and soft smile never leaving mine as he stared at me earnestly.

"Amara..."

I shivered when he said my name. Gusto kong umiwas ng tingin sa kan'ya pero masyadong nakalulunod ang titig niya sa akin. It was deep, bare, and sincere.

"I hope you'll stop holding yourself back from feeling our bond." He softly caressed my cheek. "You're my mate. I am willing to try everything with you. I am willing to fall in love with you. I am willing to tie myself to you. I..." He smiled nervously. "I hope you could do the same..."

His words tug something in me. His sincerity was everything and I, for once, wanted to give in. I want to stop resisting the matebond, I want to stop thinking about anything else, I want to start letting my guards down around him, and I want to try us.

Despite the remaining small distance between our bodies, I could feel the heat from his. And as much as I want to deny it, it was comforting me.

"Amara..." nagsusumamo niyang pagtawag niya ulit sa akin.

I closed my eyes and leaned on to his touch. Fuck it. Fuck consequences.

I opened my eyes and pulled him against me. Halatang nagulat siya sa ginawa ko pero hindi ko na siya hinayaang makapagsalita pa nang tumingkayad ako at inabot ang kan'yang labi.

Sparks flew when my lips touched his soft one. Ramdam ko ang paninigas niya sa pagkabigla. Hindi ako tumigil at mas kumapit sa kan'ya saka muling ipinikit ang aking mata. I kissed him like my life depended on it. I kissed him like this is my last. I kissed him like he's mine.

He's mine.

My wolf growled in approval. Yes. He's ours.

Blaked groaned before pulling me closer to his hard chest, leaving no distance between us, before kissing me back with the same intensity.

"Damn it, Amara. If I only knew it'd feel so right kissing you, I should have claimed you the first time I met you," he growled between our shared kiss.

I smiled, heat rolling off my body like a wave.

I think this kiss did a great job persuading me to try us.