The way I feel.......(#Wattys 2015)

December 18

December 18

10:35PM

Dear future self,

Nothing makes sense, but every thing makes perfect sense.

I don't know what's going on in my head, but I very well know it all.

Nothing seems right but nothing's wrong either.

I had a bad day, a very bad day. Whenever you have a bad day just remember that I told you to hang in there. Trust yourself. You've survived a lot and you will survive whatever is coming. You'l be fine because I trust you and I know you better than anyone so I know that you'll be perfectly fine. Don't bawl your eyes out. Smile, happy looks good on you. Show life that you're strong.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Stand a little taller.

Even if you don't believe in yourself, I do. When life puts you in tough situations I do not want you to say 'Why me?', Just say 'Try me'.

Reality #7: You will have to let go of people.

No matter how much you love them, you will have to let go off people. A part of growing up is to realize that you can't always protect the people you love. And you can't treasure them forever either. If somebody's avoiding you, don't disturb them again. The ones who are supposed to stay will stay, and will make efforts to stay. I know that's hard but how life goes.

Reality #8: There are a few people who actually love you.

This ones sweet.

There might be a thousand people who hate you and that's good because people don't hate losers, but there will also be a group of people who will always have your back when you are weak. They'll love you...... a lot. Remember, somebody loves everything you hate about yourself.

So good bye sweetheart.

Love,

Maria.