Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince

4. Hey Stephen

Y/N finally gets vulnerable with Taylor allowing her to see her for all she is. Scared of rejection like never before from the girl who has easily become so important to Y/N. 

The sun shines through Taylors window slowly waking the two girls up. 

Y/N's POV

" Y/N what is that ?" Taylor asks half asleep. Not being fully aware of what is going on I respond without opening my eyes "What are you talking about?" slowly as I feel around I realize Taylor is so close to me with barely any space in between us realizing the position my eyes open up too fast still not fully processing the situation.

Soon Taylor reaches and touches my member scaring the hell out of me and says "This what is this?" 

I stop breathing momentarily in fear, and quickly jump back falling off the bed. With my abrupt exit Taylor opens her eyes slowly waking up more and asks me"Are you okay? What happened? Y/N?"  

I jump up and I must look insane and say "I'm great, don't worry about me" I try to laugh it off and continue "I just have to go right now we'll talk later okay, bye" 

I run out of Taylors room nearly trampling over my own feet trying to get away before she realizes what is going on. I wasn't exactly sure what I was thinking running away like that but I just let my feet lead me out and into my truck. Before I knew it I was back at my house running into my room face planted on my bed in embarassment. I knew this is something that happened but with Taylor this was different for me she actually matters to me and what she thinks of me is something i care deeply about. 

I scolded myself for the way I left her house but my fear of the situation prevented me from acting rationally. What would she think of me I thought to myself for what felt like minutes but actually hours. 

Before I knew it there was a knock on my door my parents take turns saying "Are you okay Y/N you came in so fast we never got a chance to see you" I groaned in dissaproval, they continued " We are here for you if you want to talk, okay"  I get up fighting to say what happened but still open the door for them. Both of them nearly falling inside from how close they were. "Hey mom, dad I just did the most embarassing thing you can imagine" They look at me concerned but wait for me to continue. I explain everything to them leaving out exactly how Taylor grabbed me to avoid that weirdness but still enough so they understand my concern. My dad pats me for reassurance while my mom says "Y/N I know this can be scary but Taylor is such a sweet girl I don't think she'll think differently of you but if she did then she isn't the girl we thought she was, but I have a good feeling about this one give her a chance okay?" I smile at my mom knowing deep inside that she is right. I exhale a breathe I was clearly holding in and say "Okay mom, I will thank you guys for always knowing what to say, but I think I'll give it a minute before I get the courage to go find her and tell her" My parents then smile at me and give me the space I need to keep thinking in my room. 

A couple more hours go by and another knock is heard at my door, I eye my door suspiciously wondering why my parents would come back knowing I'd probably be sulking still but still I get up to see what they want. When I open the door I am surprised to see the girl I am trying so hard to avoid. She looks at me sympathetically but still a little confused. I move aside to let her in my room and she enters looking around smiling lightly at all my collectibles. I blush slightly as she is looking so intensely.

 I break the silence by saying "I am so sorry for the way I left that isn't normally like me but I just wasn't ready to talk about this just yet." 

She turns to look at me and without judgment says "It's okay Y/N and I understand if you still don't want to talk about it I won't force you I just wanted you to know I am here for you okay" 

I was shocked by how well she was handling this but relieved knowing she wasn't upset with me. 

She continues and says " I was so concerned about you when you left I tried calling you but then realized you left your phone with how fast you left" she pulls out my phone handing it to me. I take it thanking her for bringing it to me.

"Taylor I can't express how much it means to me how patient you're being but I do want to tell you I was just scared you'd think differently of me and I just care so much about what you think." I say while looking down nervous.

She walks up to me and grabs my hand pulling me to sit next to her on my bed. "No matter what it is I would never think differently of you I promise"

I take a deep breathe and decide it's time to tell her "What you felt this morning is because I'm Intersex" I close my eyes scared.

She looks at me turning my face to hers and asks me to explain it. 

"Basically it means I was born with the wrong body part i am with female upper anatomy but a male lower anatomy, When I was a baby my parents thought they had a boy but then my more female parts came in and thats when they found out." I say and then get up walking towards my closet and pull out a big S letter. Taylor looks at me confused but doesn't question, I end her confusion by saying "This was in my room because my name was Stephen before we changed it to Y/N" 

Taylor looks at me and smiles before saying "Too bad I like the name Stephen" I look at her and smile back not fully being able to believe that she could be taking this so well. Fearing I might be dreaming I turn back putting the S away and smiling. Taylor then grabs me and pulls me back to my bed so I can sit down.

"Tell me more about you?" she says

I look at her with so much adoration and have to fight the sting in my eyes that threaten to come out. I swallow my nerves and say "Okay" 

I then spend the rest of my day telling Taylor everything there is to know about me. Occasionally getting her to tell me about herself too but she insisted this was about me. I tell her how Soph, Dan and I became friends. I told her about my first love. I told her about my love for football. I told her about my love for theatre which surprised her saying she needed to see me perform one day much to my distaste I told her that I'd love that. But it was in that moment I knew there was nothing else I would love more than Taylor Swift.