Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince

15. A place in this world

Y/N's POV

Taylor and I have been talking all day about life. She has been telling me how happy she is with writing music and how it is what she has always wanted. It was nice to hear her so enthusiastic, with every word she said it was so endearing her passion really made me see thing differently. It had me thinking what I wanted to do. I hadn't thought about any of it until now. 

I was a junior and soon I'd be a senior and need to have this thought out. Seeing the way Taylor gets talking about what she does made me want to have something like that which made me happy. Especially dating Taylor I never wanted anyone to think I was just loading off on her. 

I pondered over this with Taylor and our cat Meredith who was just so happy to be with us. Taylor and I were laying on my bed looking up at the ceiling as we spoke. 

"Well what is something you've done in school that might open a door for you of what you like to do?" Taylor asks

"Well football I don't think is forever even if I do like it and I like theatre but it was more for fun to me." I say still unsure

"What about something that brings you peace?" Taylor says

I think about that a few moments remembering as much as I could about what I've been doing the past couple of months and honestly as annoying as it was Taylor was the only thing I could think of but she wasn't a job.

I then tried to think without Taylor what comforted me then I remembered writing and said "Well when you were gone I'd write lyrics alot or just journal in general and I think it comforted me knowing I was doing something that made me feel connected to you."

"Really?!" Taylor asked sitting up and I laughed smiling at her.

"Yeah really" I said

"You could be a songwriter and we could work together" she said intrigued.

"That would be a dream" I said. 

"Do you have anything done you can let me hear?" she asked

"I do but don't laugh at me" I say 

I then go to grab my guitar and place it on my lap making sure it is tuned then I start strumming and singing softly.

(Disclaimer: I obviously didn't write this song but for the story Adam Young didn't write it but he did sing it and make it sound the way it does professionally)

"You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
'Cause they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude but I would just stand and stareI'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread (thread, thread)I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)Leave my door open just a crack
Please take me away from here
'Cause I feel like such an insomniac
Please take me away from here
Why do I tire of counting sheep?
Please take me away from here
When I'm far too tired to fall asleepTo ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (they said farewell)
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
'Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar (jar, jar, jar)I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)I'd like to make myself believe that planet Earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)"

As I finished playing I awaited Taylors response nervously.

"Oh my gosh that was amazing !!! Y/N I'm starting to think there isn't a single thing you can't do" Taylor says smiling at me

"You should really consider this as a route for you if you want it" She continues

"Yeah I did like it alot expressing myself in a creative way feels great I see why you like it so much" I say

"Maybe we can write together for fun whenever I am free and we feel like it" she says 

"I'd love that" I said at the thought of spending that time with her doing something so vulnerable and intimate with her. 

I spend the rest of the day thinking about what Taylor said and if this route would allow me to work with her eventually it sounded great.