Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince

64. The Archer

(Flashback: authors note still applies lol)
August 2019

Taylors POV

I was going to be releasing my album soon but something happened I had nearly forgotten that this had happened so soon but with Y/N's accident I hadn't thought about it until today.

I had missed my period and gotten a pregnancy test and it came back positive I cried hysterically that I couldn't share this moment with Y/N this time around I didn't take anything so this was most likely true.

I planned to go to the clinic to confirm and then I'd tell others. I asked my mom to go with me and she agreed which made me relieved I wouldn't have to go alone.

Later I had gotten results that I was indeed pregnant and would be due March 27, 2020. I was devastated not being able to share this with Y/N it broke my heart how excited we were one moment and now in this tragedy.

February 2020

Taylors POV

Soph and I were with Y/N in the hospital most of the day today talking and playing cards doing anything to pass the time.

It was hard to not lose faith but I tried to not think of that. I wondered what Y/N thought, did she know we were here for her.

Today I would be playing her my song the Archer one of the few songs I left for her to hear.

The song played as Soph and I sat next to Y/N while holding her hands and laying our heads down on the hospital bed. I would occasionally sing along to pass the time hoping she could hear it.

Combat, I'm ready for combat
I say I don't want that, but what if I do?
'Cause cruelty wins in the movies
I've got a hundred thrown-out speeches I almost said to youEasy they come, easy they go
I jump from the train, I ride off alone
I never grew up, it's getting so old
Help me hold onto youI've been the archer
I've been the prey
Who could ever leave me, darling?
But who could stay?Dark side, I search for your dark side
But what if I'm alright, right, right, right here?
And I cut off my nose just to spite my face
Then I hate my reflection for years and yearsI wake in the night, I pace like a ghost
The room is on fire, invisible smoke
And all of my heroes die all alone
Help me hold onto youI've been the archer
I've been the prey
Screaming, who could ever leave me, darling?
But who could stay?
(I see right through me, I see right through me)'Cause they see right through me
They see right through me
They see right through
Can you see right through me?
They see right through
They see right through me
I see right through me
I see right through meAll the king's horses, all the king's men
Couldn't put me together again
'Cause all of my enemies started out friends
Help me hold onto youI've been the archer
I've been the prey
Who could ever leave me, darling?
But who could stay?
(I see right through me, I see right through me)
Who could stay?
Who could stay?
Who could stay?
You could stay
You could stay
YouCombat, I'm ready for combat

Once the song was done Soph said she'd be heading out and to call her if anything happened and today would be another day waiting for Y/N to wake up. I soon fell asleep by her side like I did every day.

The next day Soph returned with Dan and Sam as they bought food in telling me to join them in eating.

"I'm not really hungry yet" I say with my gaze focused on Y/N

"Y/N would want you to eat plus you'll need your energy to be there when she wakes up especially because you know what." Said Dan

I knew they were right. I thought about how Y/N would take care of me and always make sure I ate eating with me to make sure I didn't feel bad. I smiled at the thought and decided to join them. We all ate in silence only saying something a couple times to ease the tension.

"So Jack told me you had a music video you're supposed to be working on" Soph said

I looked away thinking Jack ratted me out my attempt to avoid leaving Y/N's side was preventing me from doing anything else.

"Y/N wouldn't want you to miss out on what you have to do you know, she knows how much it means to you so it means that much to her." Dan said

"I know guys but I can't I don't want to leave her." I said

"We will be here don't worry if anything happened we would let you know immediately." Sam said

"I don't know" I said contemplating as this was one of the videos I was looking forward to sharing with Y/N

"It just feels wrong doing anything else without her." I continued.

"We know this isn't easy but trust us okay?" Soph said "Just this time go and do that and as soon as you're done we will all be here waiting for you"

I debated it for a while knowing they were right. The rest of the day was filled with watching TV shows and movies listening to more music and talking more to Y/N. I knew this was hard for all of us in the end I decided to tell them I would go in and work on my video knowing they could use a sense of normalcy too as I know this is a challenege for them too.

Later in the night Blake came by and talked to us and told us about her new movie. She ended up joining us for our late night watching friends. For the first time in the past couple of months we all laughed and nearly enjoyed ourselves.

By the end of the night everyone parted ways and I spent my night by Y/N's side.