Miss Americana & The Heartbreak Prince

6. Teardrops On My Guitar

Taylor starts to realize her feelings for Y/N and realizes just how much she has influenced her. This inspiration helps her finish her Debut Album but it wont release until October 24th. What will happen until then.

The school year continues its now September about a month into the school year. With Taylor and Y/N knowing eachother for about three months now. 

Taylors POV

Y/N and I are sitting in my room working on an assignment for history. I watch her every movement so carefully. I smile softly to myself at how focused she looks. My eyes shift to the bear she gave me and then chuckle lightly at the name she gave it Drew. I can't really believe how Y/N has had such a big impact on my life. Rather than being able to focus on our assignment my mind drifts towards the last song I'm trying to finish for my album. 

I look at Y/N again thinking about how she has unintentionally been influencing my music and all of my writing. I've written countless songs that aren't even related to my debut album and all of them revolve around her. She runs her hand through her hair absentmindedly and I close my eyes trying to relax my heartbeat. 

Y/N finally looks at me and smiles saying "You're not thinking about history at all are you, because if you are,  you're very worked up about it and I'm concerned about your involvement in the Revolutionary War." 

I laugh because she is so funny. 

She laughs with me before saying "Alright come on what's on your mind" 

I look at her wanting to say exactly what im feeling but know I can't so instead I say "Nothing, I'm just thinking about my album I am so close to finishing it but this last song has to be perfect because it'll be one of my singles but I can't seem to get the story right." 

Her smile softens as she says "Don't worry Taylor, you'll get it right like you always do. Nothing a professional songwriter like you can'y handle." I shake my head wondering how she can't tell how important she is to me. 

"You know what'll help you?" She says

I look at her curiously and say "What?" 

Before I knew it she grabs Drew the bear and with a different voice says "Talking to Drew will help you come on Mom, tell me all of your problems" I look in horror but laugh at her sweet attempt to make me feel better.

I walk over to her grab Drew and place him on the nightstand before sitting next to her on my bed. I look her in the eyes and say "Thank you " she smiles at me, our faces so close we can feel eachothers breath. I look down at her lips and then back to her eyes and notice she did the same. I smile before leaning in closer slowly still not giving myself what I am craving most. I can hear her breath hitch slightly at the close contact yet neither of us make the move to close the gap we both clearly want to close. We stay like that before I decide to just lean in for a kiss on the cheek and a hug. She reciprocates the hug still with a dazed look in her eye. 

We then decide to continue on our assignment neither of choosing to acknowledge what nearly happened. Soon after finishing Y/N goes home to get some sleep. I stay up looking at the ceiling the same way we did that night she slept over but this time I couldnt fall asleep. I stayed up thinking about her wondering if she knew how much I think about her. I think about how fearless she is from getting me to dance in my best dress in the rain to her playing football on all boys teams. She is so strong yet so sweet and gentle. I don't understand how someone can be so perfect. I think about the morning I found out about Y/N being Intersex and how she opened up to her struggles growing up but how now she has been a lot more care free about it having found the people who love and accept her. It was truly beautiful getting to know her mind and what matters to her. I knew I'd never judge her for something like that but I can't lie and say I haven't thought about it, our most intimate moment together happened because I grabbed her without even knowing what I was grabbing. I had to shake my head of the thoughts I was getting about the Y/E/C girl. 

I decide that since sleep isn't going to happen I'll try to write more music. My mind drifts trying to figure out my last song and I soon make eye contact with Drew. Suddenly in that moment it all clicks for me a secret way to write about her without saying her name but giving it to a persona that she created. 

Now all the words flowed easily and I had finally finished my last song Teardrops On My Guitar. I was so happy all that was left is to record it and then I am done. I smiled thinking about how she ended up helping me without even trying. At this point it was as clear as day that I was falling very hard and fast for Y/N and I could only hope she'd be there to catch me. 

Y/N's POV

I can't believe Taylor almost kissed me, can you believe that I ask myself. I stare at my ceiling thinking about the girl who has been occupying my mind ever since we met. She still has the same effect she had on me when we first met yet months later it's the same. Why can't she see she is driving me crazy I don't know how much longer I'll be able to hide this.