Made For You - Stray Kids x original character

I have eight boyfriends of course i got an iud

We got home right as Chan was about to leave.

"Oh hey guys!" He said as he kissed mine and minhos foreheads, "I keep just missing both of you somehow."

I smile softly, "I've got something I need to ask you later, so I'll be back by your studio."

He pinched my ear softly, "of course baby."

Then he was off. Minho made us lunch and we watched the guys disappear off to the company one by one. We had been spending a lot more time all holed up in one dorm, it just felt natural. I was still looking for a place that I could afford with my student loans and everything.

Me and Minho were cuddled up on the couch, his hands around my waist and his head resting in the crook of my neck. We were just watching some movies. It had been too long since we had relaxed at all.

He placed a small kiss right on my collar bone. I shivered lightly. Trying to ignore him. His arms wrapped tighter around my waist, fingertips finding their way just under the hem of my shirt to touch bare skin.

"Lino..." I breathed, "my self control can only be stretched so thin."

He looked up into my eyes, "so why bother? you should kiss me."

"We all agreed to wait till our break for the rest of the bonding...."

"Well I changed my mind, I want to kiss you now," he said matter of fact, moving closer.

"You guys already fucked up once when you and Chan kissed, you know how hard that made doing your work..." I carded my hands in his hair, "and let's not talk about hyunjin and jeongin... you guys basically didn't get anything done for a week."

He kissed my jaw softly, "I'm pretty much set on all the choreography, we've recorded more than half the songs on the album... Your little songwriter has written enough music for a mini album. We don't have to work as hard now... so please..."

I think the please is what took me out, because next thing I knew I was kissing him. Then it felt like the next breath I was on my back on the couch with him hovering over me. His eyes searched mine and I know mine told him everything. I wanted him so bad.

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I pulled Minho into Chans studio and we stood arm to arm, not able to be apart.

Chan turned around in his chair and looked us both up and down. Neither of us could make eye contact, "did ya'll fuck?"

I blushed impossibly deeper, "Chris!"

"So you did fuck."

We both stayed silent. He sighed and ran a hand through his hair, "were ya'll at least safe?" 

"Well, yeah...kinda.." Minho spoke up.

He raised an eyebrow, arms crossed, "kinda?"

"I have an iud Chan, it's fine," I said sitting down on the couch.

"You got an iud?" He asked, surprised.

"Well, yeah. I have eight idol boyfriends, it seemed necessary."

He laughed, "well, it seems you were right," he shakes his head, "all of my kisses have been sweet and pure, the rest of you are horn dogs."

"Yeah maybe your kisses now, but do I have to remind you of the first time we kissed, Chan? Before all the soulmate business?" Minho said, smirking.

Chan cleared his throat, turning back around, "you most definitely do not," he turned to look at me sheepishly, "so what did you want to talk to me about?"

"Jyp is putting another group together," I said settling myself into minhos arms.

He nodded, "yeah, and you're gonna be working on it?"

I chewed on my lip, "actually, he asked me to be in it. Or at least in the survival show."

He laughed, "of course it's a survival show..."  he sat back in his chair, considering, "I mean, do you really want to? It doesn't seem like your kind of thing."

"I mean, I miss performing like nothing else... I haven't sung in front of an audience since my undergrad. I used to live for it... I just, I'm scared I'm not cut out for being an idol, even if it is only temporary," I sigh, shifting in my seat, nerves taking over.

"I had no idea you had even thought about being a performer, an artist..." he trailed off, "I thought you preferred a behind the scenes role."

I shrugged, "I had dreams once too... I wanted to be you guys at one point, I wanted to perform sold out arenas, I wanted to feel that rush. But I'm practical, and I know my limits."

"What do you think your limits are, baby?" Minho asked from behind me.

"I'm too old to be a rookie now first of all. And I've never had the personality for it, I'm too honest, I can't school myself in front of cameras. I also don't look like a celebrity, I'm plain. It doesn't matter how talented you are people are drawn to attractive people," I said the words plainly, like facts. Because they were.

They both stayed silent for a moment before Chan spoke, "Robin... First of all, call yourself plain again and we are going to have words. Secondly, none of those things disqualify you from performing. I knew you wanted to release music but I didn't know you wanted to be a singer. I would have helped you.."

I pinched my lips together, "I don't want to be a singer, I am a singer. I always have been, i'm an artist and I always have been. But no one, my entire life has ever seen me as one, and that includes you guys... I'm just scared that means That no one ever will see me as an artist."

He shook his head, "honestly, Robin im sorry... looking back you've always been so passionate about your music and the work you do it should have been plain to see that you wanted more... I just was too wrapped up in my shit to realize."

I shrugged, "it's fine... I mean, I never told you. You don't have to see everything."

He shook his head again, softly, "I can't believe i'm encouraging someone to join a jyp survival show, but I think you should do it. Even if it's just to make people see you. Even if it's just to make us see you."

I smile softly, "it couldn't hurt to try... right?"