Bless Your Little Heart

TWO

I remembered the moment from yesterday between my mother and father, the moment she touched his hand. How she has such control over his emotions, in a good way. It kept replaying in my head for some reason, I couldn't stop thinking about it. Maybe I was just jealous, or maybe I was just hopeful. That one day I'll be able to experience that type of love towards someone.

I slapped the paint once again on the already messy canvas. Painting atop the art I started yesterday, I sat with my thoughts and feelings. Thinking of what I wanted out of life, what I expected if myself. As I kept thinking and thinking, trying to come up with reasons, nothing came to mind. I know I want a family one day, to be married, have children and fall in love. But in regards to my own personal happiness? Im at a halt, I feel like no matter which direction I go it's the wrong one. As if life is hoping I fail, never to succeed and live a miserable, lonesome life.

These thoughts ate at my brain for hours as I painted away, the morning going by in the snap of a finger. Soon realizing it was almost noon I hopped in the shower. Scrubbing the dried paint off my frail body, rubbing soap along the curves that accentuate my waist. I scrub my hair, enjoying the heat from the water, it burned my skin, giving a pleasurable sensation.

I turned the water off and wrapped a towel around me, walking to my room and sitting at my vanity. Taking the time to dry my hair and do some light makeup, might as well make myself presentable. After picking out a crop top and jeans, I slid into my sneakers before standing in front of the mirror. Examining every inch of my body as I moved around. I pulled out my phone and pulled up snapchat, snapping a picture of myself in the mirror writing "College is right around the corner!" then posting it.

Satisfied, I grab my purse and trot down the hallway, shutting my door as I leave my room. "Hey mom!" I shout out, not seeing her in any of the common areas. "Bedroom!" She shouted, having me retrace my steps past my bedroom and into her, opening the door to laundry thrown all over the bed with her having Netflix play in the background.

She turned to me pausing the tv, "You heading out?" She laid down the shirt she held. "Yea, hopefully it's not packed with it being Sunday and all." I gave her a smile with her returning one.

"We'll be careful my love, and call me if you need anything." She walked over to me and planted a kiss on my forehead before wrapping her arms around me for a hug.

I squeezed her body against mine, taking in her sweet floral perfume she always wore. I loved it, the mix between coconut and lilac was phenomenal. It made my nose hairs want to dance.

"I love you momma." I hummed into her chest, "I love you too baby."

I walked around the mall aimlessly, not knowing where to go or what to look for. With how big it was in here it intimated me, all the stores blasting music trying to persuade you to shop there.

I scanned the area until I saw a Victoria Secret, needing new underwear I trotted my way there. Feeling my phone vibrate I see a text from my father.

Hey baby sorry I didn't see you before you left, I was mowing. I'll see you when you get home.

I smiled and typed back, looking up to make sure I didn't bump into anyone.

It's okay papa, I love you!

Before I could press send a large mass bumped into me, almost knocking me off my feet. I regain my balance to see a tall dark haired man staring me down. His eyes wandering my body as I stand before him. "Excuse you?" I fuss, dusting myself off in the process.

"Apologizes ma'am." He remarks before slowly walking away, keeping his eyes on me before disappearing in the crowds of people.

"Fucking asshole." I mutter, pressing send on the text and walking into the store.

I breath a sigh of relief as the pink and black walls stare me down, causing happiness to rekindle inside me. Staring down at the underwear I see a sale sign, getting giddy I grab the designated amount before walking to the register.

I thank the sales lady as I pay and leave the store, feeling at ease in this stressful environment. My head clear and mind set, I trek on off to the next store.

The bags on my arm weighing it down slightly, I struggle as I walk up the parking garage steps. Of course the elevator had to be broken, and of course I parked on the fifth floor.

After what felt like ages I finally see the five painted on the wall next to a doorway. Relived I enter and see my car. A black SUV parked across from me a couple spaces down.

I waddle to the trunk of my car, almost dropping everything I was holding, fumbling the keys in my free hand.

"Need any help?" A voice behind me spoke, cashing me to jump. I quickly turn and see the man from earlier standing behind me, ten or so feet away.

"Oh, no thanks. I'm fine." I mutter before, fumbling with the keys even more. My nerves getting to me as the man stands eerily close to me. We're the only people up here so who knows what could happen.

"Here." He softly grabbed the keychain from my hand, holding the key fob and pressing the trunk button, releasing the thing I had been fighting this whole time.

I swung my arm over and pulled the bags down my arm, sitting them down softly and neatly. Feeling the man's presence still behind me.

"I appreciate the help, can I have my keys ba." As I shut the trunk my words were cut off by a cloth being placed over my mouth. Fumes soaked in it burned my nostrils. I screamed against the rag, noise barely escaping.

"This will only be hard if you make it baby." He whispered in my ear as he held the cloth firmly against my face.

Fear filling my eyes as he restrains my hands against his body, allowing me to feel the muscles hugging his shirt. He worked out, which means he could seriously hurt me if he wanted to.

No matter the thought I fought as hard as I could to get loose but it was to no avail. This man has the upper hand against me, I was barely 100 pounds soaking wet, there was no way I could defeat this man.

My eyes grew heavy as my vision grew blurry, the sounds of my breathing filled my ears as I fell into a slumber.

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Uh oh, yea I made it happen, like that quick. We ain't playing around these parts.

Enjoy!

xoxo