Love of Our Lives

Chapter 42 - The Hurtful Past Part 3

Anson had joined this Lion Dance Troop where he has his trainings and practices every Friday night, sometimes till late and doesn't have the time to meet me. And during the weekdays we would be in school. Anson is a year younger than me and his father had asked him to choose the same college as me so that I could look after him in school for his father or rather to see what he has been doing all these while, etc. Like a spy, I supposed. Anson soon made friends with his own classmates and we would often hang out together too after school. There was this day where Anson fell sick and didn't went to school.

I got a call from his younger brother, Alfred telling me that he has this girl-friend who came to visit him and even gifted him a wallet. What?! A wallet? And who is this girl? I thought to myself. Alfred told me that it was his god-sister who is younger than Anson. And they will talk on the phone sometimes too. Feeling confused about who this girl was, I parked my thoughts aside as I do not want to overthink it or caused any unwanted stress on myself. But as weeks go by, I noticed that this god-sister of his has been calling him every now and then. The way he addressed Anson is so intimate. It doesn't look like some god-siblings kind of relationship. I was feeling too upset, confused, irritated.

But one day, I really couldn't take it anymore. I confronted him and he kept telling me that there is nothing ongoing with them. We were talking things out at one of the residential block where people often passed by. Anson pulled me in for a hug trying to reassure me that there is nothing between them. But I couldn't care less. I just cannot believe his words. My guts are telling me that there is something more between them. More than just god-siblings kind of relationship. I then made up my mind and decided to break up with him. We were together for about 11 months. I can see how fragile a relationship could be. I felt that my heart is dying. I cannot believe in love anymore.

It wasn't long until one of our common friends (Me and Matthew's common friend) called me up saying that Matthew still misses me and all. He even wrote a fan fiction about us on his blog. Of course I don't believe it. But my heart is telling me to see his blog. Indeed, he wrote our story on his blog mentioning that he still misses me, he has regretted to let me go, etc. He described himself as a bastard, a jerk. At that moment, I truly felt touched by his words. He was the one who broke up with me and now he says that he misses me and all? Is this for real? Or is he trying to catch my attention or what? I asked myself. But deep down, I could feel that I still misses him, I still loved him. He was like my first love. No one has ever treated me and have made me feel like a princess before. I then realized that I still love him a lot. Matthew apologized to me and asked if we could patch back. Of course I agreed. I am so happy that we are back together once again! I really don't wanna leave Matthew ever again after this patch back.