Love of Our Lives

Chapter 45 - The Hurtful Past Part 6

After the phone call, I decided that I should stop torturing myself and my mind. Hence, I made up my mind even though I am feeling damn fucking hurt. My heart now has a new scar even before the old one could heal. I dropped Matthew a text message that I am breaking up with him and I ended my relationship with him. I didn't know that after patching up with Matthew, it could bring me so much pain. It was so painful that I can't feel anything anymore. So probably about few weeks later or so, I was alighting from the bus which I always take to the college. Guess who I saw? I saw Matthew with Adele, both of them are holding hands and boarding the bus together! I felt shocked, betrayed, disgusted, sad, whatever and I ran down from the bus all the way into the college.

Some of my classmates saw that I was running into the building and asked me what happened. I told them what I saw and they were all shocked! Matthew's mom didn't approve them to be together and even Matthew had told me before that they won't be together. So what does this supposed to mean now? We just broke up and now Matthew is together with Adele? I'm sorry. I can't do this. I just can't do it. How many times does he want to pierce my heart with his knife? I felt horrible. It was the worst day of my life, even worse than the day when I knew he got her pregnant. All these bullshits, lies, betrayals and what not had killed me and tear me down instantly. Thank you Matthew for doing this to me.

No matter how much he told me over the MSN that we could still be friends even though we can't be lovers, etc. No thanks. No thanks to him, Matthew. I don't wish to be associated with him anymore and I don't want to have any more things to do with him anymore. That's it. Goodbye to that bastard! Many things started to come to light after we broke up. Things like he was actually involved in a threesome together with his buddy, Evan and with his fiancée's best friend, Clara. And they actually have their solemnization ceremony the day after at the chalet. I wasn't there because I couldn't stay overnight at the chalet.

Perhaps, it was a lucky thing that I did not stay over at the chalet because my mom doesn't allow me to. Upon hearing all these, I was even more disappointed in Matthew. I was still together with him and he could still do such a thing with Evan who is getting married with his fiancée on the following day. I felt disgusted. But I am glad that I am not with Matthew anymore and I have then break off contacts with all his friends for the good. I don't wanna see him or his friends anymore. But the most annoying thing is that because we both stay in the east side and in the same district so I would still see him outside of college. And this sucks big time. It was like a nightmare to me, I was traumatized by all the things that had happened to me. It took me a while to get over it and to move on but I will definitely not be able to forget what had happened. Till date, the scars are still visible inside my heart.