Love of Our Lives

Chapter 46 - I Love You Park Jimin!

- Back to the present day at Jimin's & Yoongi's apartment -

I told Jimin what had happened from the start till the end with me sobbing the whole time. Inbetween while I was telling Jimin the whole story, Jimin did not interrupt or question meanything. He just sat beside me and listened to me very carefully the entire time. I could tell fromJimin's face that he looked very sad and had teary eyes as well. He then come closer to me andhugged me very tightly. I could feel that this hug of his is very different from his previous ones.He hugged me while nuzzling his face on my shoulders. Suddenly, I heard Jimin sobbing and histears are all over my shoulders. I feel so sorry and sad at this instance. Jimin is crying now and Icouldn't bear to see him crying. My heart breaks.

I slowly stroked and patted Jimin's back to comfort him. He then slowly let me go from hisembrace and looked at me straight with his gentle yet teary eyes. I used my thumb to gentlywiped away his tears that have somehow gone out of control. Jimin then started tracing hisfingers on my face and said "I am really sorry that you have to go through all of these, mysweetheart. It shouldn't be like this at all. You definitely don't deserve any of this...!" With Jimin'swords, I felt like crying again but I was trying my best not to.

"I am really sorry Jimin if I had disappoint you in any ways. I am not that perfect girl whom youmay think I am. My past is really atrocious and I am really too ashamed and embarrassed to tellyou all of these. But I managed to pick up the courage to tell you so that I am not hidinganything from you. I know you may not be accept my past which I can totally understand. So ifmy past bothers you, just let me know and I will leave you without any questions asked." I said toJimin while looking down at my hands. I don't know how to face Jimin anymore after I have toldhim all of these. What's on Jimin's mind right now? What is he thinking about right now? WouldJimin be able to accept my past entirely? Is this the end of our relationship already...? Thesethoughts are passing through my mind right now. Somehow, I am too afraid to know how Jiminfeels about all of these.

Jimin suddenly cupped my face with both of his hands and bring my face up to face him on eyelevel. Jimin's eyes...they are so mesmerizing. I miss looking at Jimin like this but I am feeling tooashamed to look at him straight into his eyes. I rolled my eyeballs down to one side where I willnot be looking at Jimin's face directly. Jimin noticed that I wasn't looking at him at all. All of asudden, I felt something soft on my lips. It was Jimin's lips and he had kissed me on my lips. Itried to pull away from his kiss but his other hand was suddenly on the back of my head notwanting me to move any inches away from his kiss. The kiss was gentle but passionate. Ieventually gave in and kissed Jimin back with tears still in my eyes.

After the kiss, Jimin hugged me and said "Can you feel anything from the kiss that we had? Thisis how I feel about you and our relationship. No matter what had happened to you before, it's allalready in the past. I want you to just focus on yourself, me and our relationship right now. Thepast is not important to you or to me anymore. I want to thank you for telling me your pastinstead. It must have been hard for you to relive the whole thing and to tell me in person. Thankyou so much for trusting me and to let me know what had happened to you. Now that I haveunderstand you and your past better, it makes me even more determined to be with you, to bethere for you, to love you, to dote on you and to protect you, my sweetie. Nothing will everchange my love for you and my decision to be together with you. I love you, my dear..."

My heart melted after hearing what Jimin said. I leaned over and gave Jimin a kiss on his lips withhappy tears this time round. "Jimin...Thank you so much for accepting me and my past. Thankyou so much for healing those scars on my heart. It may take time for the scars to fully heal but Ipromise you that I will focus on us and our relationship from now on. I love you Jimin..." Ihugged Jimin as tightly as I could so that I can feel his body warmth and heartbeats. Jimin is real.This guy is real and he's right here with me. Jimin wiped my tears away and looked at me withhis most gentle smile. "I love you Park Jimin...!" I whispered to Jimin softly.

Without us knowing it has already passed the lunchtime. Jimin saw the time on the wall clock anddecided to order some food for our lunch. "You must be hungry my sweetheart. Let's order somefood for our lunch, shall we?" Jimin giggled. "Yeah. Let's do that." I smiled and leaned my head onJimin's shoulders with my arms clinging onto his. We had our lunch and continued watching thedrama where we have left from. Yoongi and Cheryl came back to the apartment close to dinnertime and we saw Yoongi laughing loudly while teasing Cheryl as they entered through the maindoor.

"What were you guys laughing about? What's so funny?" I asked. "Yoongi is laughing hard at mebecause while we were at the arcade earlier, we were playing this basketball game and I don'tknow how but when I threw the basketball out while aiming the moving ring, the basketball flewout and it hit on Yoongi's head." Cheryl explained in embarrassment. "Ouch!" Jimin exclaimedin a funny way. And Yoongi is still laughing hard... "Babe! You are so damn funny!"Yoongi was already crying out of laughter. Cheryl joined in the laughing as well. The wholeapartment was filled with our laughter.