Love of Our Lives

Chapter 43 - The Hurtful Past Part 4

Finally, we were back together again. Both of us felt so happy about it. Even our friends too. They felt that it's such a waste to just end our relationship like that. So when they knew that we were back together again, they were feeling excited for us. But not for my mum, she always had this feeling about Matthew and his buddy, Evan that they were not good fellas and I should stay away from them. Because I love Matthew too much, I didn't bothered about my mum's feeling or advices that she had given me when we were together. I only begin to feel it in the later stage of our relationship.

There was this day where me, Matthew, our friend Jody were all at Evan's house. We were like chilling and all. Jody left Evan's house early because she had something else to do. So only left with me, Matthew and Evan. Evan then suddenly suggested us to play this game called "Strip Poker" Naively me thought he meant "Street Poker" and I agreed to play with them. Nobody told me that this game is Strip Poker and not Street Poker. I saw Evan pouring alcohol for us and he then explained the game to us. He told us that we have to play the game and if we loses, we will have to take off one piece of clothing off us. We were playing and then in the end we realized that we were left with nothing except for our undergarments.

We kept drinking the alcohol and I believe it was because of the influence from the alcohol, we were feeling quite high and we didn't know what was going on. Evan then dared Matthew to do something to me. He wanted Matthew to have sex with me while he watches. Matthew followed his instructions and started taking off my bra slowly and started licking my breasts then nipples. I was too shocked to do anything. It seemed like I am being controlled by them. After awhile, Matthew penetrated himself inside me after taking off his underwear. "Ouch" is all I could felt at that moment. After he had done with the deed. I could roughly heard Evan saying "Matthew, since we are buddies, we can share anything. So we can share our girlfriends, right? Will you mind if I share your girlfriend too?" Matthew didn't said anything and Evan just went on ahead with his plan.

He proceeded to take off his underwear and then penetrated himself into me while caressing my breasts and nipples. All I could barely see was Matthew sitting there watching all these happening to me right before his very eyes. He did not even stopped Evan from doing it. I was just like a doll lying down there for them to fuck around with. After they are done with me, we seemed to feel more sober and all of us were in shocked and surprised of what had just happened. The best thing was that we were going to meet Evan's fiancée for dinner soon at a mall nearby. We don't know what to feel anymore. I felt so embarrassed, ashamed of what had just happened. I turned over to look at Matthew and Evan. Matthew seemed to be panicking. Evan just told us not tell his fiancée, Hilary of what had happened earlier. He wanted us to keep our mouths shut. It was too fucking late to regret anything and everything right now. I was emotionless and couldn't even faced his fiancée properly that night. I kept damn quiet and can't even finish my dinner. I clearly had no appetite to eat.

I didn't know how but we managed to get through these months trying our best to forget about this whole freaking incident that had happened at Evan's house. I know I can't forget about it and I can't get over it as well. But we can't break the news to Hilary or else they won't be able to get married. We wanted the best for his buddy, Evan. So I swallowed everything myself. Matthew seemed to be not bothered by it. I felt sad about it though that he could just brushed it off like that as if nothing had happened between the 3 of us. Evan and Hilary got married in a chalet and we were all so happy for them. We would often hang out together when we are free. The 4 of us are studying at the same college too.

Another few months had passed and everything seems alright until one day when we were at Jody's house together with some of Matthew's classmates playing some board games together. Matthew's phone suddenly rang and he went to the corridor outside the house to pick up the call. After quite some time Matthew came back with a serious expression on his face and told me to follow him out to the corridor and asked me to sit down on the staircase. I looked at him, he seemed almost freaked out already. I asked him what happened. "I have something to tell you. I have made a girl pregnant." The next few seconds, I was frozen up.

"You are joking right...?" I asked Matthew softly almost wanted to cry. "No...I am not joking. I am serious. Kelly just called me to tell me that I have made her cousin pregnant." Matthew replied with a serious yet frantic look. I looked at him, full of questions and confusions "So who is her cousin?" "It is Adele." Matthew said. My eyes immediately widened up with anger. "WHAT?!! ADELE? IS IT THE ADELE FROM THE ENTREPRENEURSHIP CLUB?!!!" I asked almost shouting already. "Yes...it's her.." Matthew was about to cry at this time. I was seriously lost for words. I don't know what to reply him. I don't know what was running through my mind that time. I just wanted to run away from him, running away from all of these, bullshit.

I managed to pick myself up and walked hastily back to Jody's house and into her room. She saw me stomping in and asked what happened. "You can ask Matthew yourself" I replied her with no emotions. After which, I took my leave and ran out from her house. Matthew's classmate, Charles saw what had happened and he ran out after me as well. I could hear footsteps coming from behind me and saw it from the corner of my eyes that Charles is running after me. I ran out from the block and almost get hit by a truck. It happened all too fast and I just felt a arm pulling me back and it was Charles. He told me to calm down and not to behave so rashly. I mean how could I think properly right now when Matthew told me that he had gotten a girl pregnant?! I thought to myself.

He signaled me to go back to the staircase to have a seat and to calm myself down first. He then asked me what had happened and I told him what Matthew told me. He was shocked as well. I was already on the verge of crying and he let me lay my face on his laps to cry it out. "Just cry it all out and you will feel better." Charles said to me while patting my head. I was definitely not in the right mind to think about anything but to just cry. I tried to cry but I can't. There were no tears at all and I really felt damn awful. I wanted to cry it out but I couldn't. I just can't!!! Argh!!!