Hate or Love

chapter 20

Julia

Again I couldn't sleep

I had the dream again

Past 2 years were good I had 10-15 dreams .

But since last two weeks almost every night .A day before yesterday and also the night before we came here.

Normally I would read a book till I calmed down which means till 4 -5 am if I woke up at 1-2 am because of it

If Alex found out about that he will surely kill me. The first time I got the nightmare he told me more like ordered me If I ever dream about it and don't knock on his door the next moment then.

I just don't want to worry him I know he will never admit that it hurts him seeing me and not being able to help. He already has a lot to do deal with I don't want to worry him more with my problems.

I looked at the clock it 3:50 .Reading didn't help so I decided to go in the garden

I went outside and laid on the grass looking at the sky

After 15-20 minutes

"hi there " a very familiar voice says lying next to me snapping me out my thoughts

"what are you doing here " I ask facing him

"I could ask you the same thing " he says

"couldn't sleep "

"what about you " I add

"same I was in balcony when I saw you I thought you might like my company " he says

"I prefer to be alone " I say jokingly

"I will go then " he says getting up

When I say serious stuff he never takes seriously then when I joke he takes it seriously

Whyy is he so dumb

"stay" I say holding his arm

He lays down next to me

"what" I say when I feel him staring at me

"I thought you prefered to be alone so why did you ask me to stay "

"you come here to give me company I can't be rude "

" can I ask the reason why you couldn't sleep " he asks

"I can ask you the same thing " I say to which he rolles his eyes

"keep rolling them you might find a brain in there "

Don't know how and when but it has sort of become our thing

"done now answer my question " he says

Is serious right now

What's up with him today

" I don't want too" I say sitting up

"fine then tell me the dream you had a day before yesterday " he says now sitting

Why does he have so much interest in it. The dreams which haunt me. Reason of my sleepless nights.

"J" He says lifting my face making me look at him

"I am sorry I shouldn't have asked " he says

Before I could say anything he spoke again

"I was just worried about you that's why I asked "

"why " I muttered

He was about to say something when the alarm on my phone rang

"get up " I say picking up my phone

"why"

"it's 4:40 the elders will wake up in a few minutes "

"let's go " he says getting up

We both go to our respective rooms

What was he going to say

Why was he worried about me

Does he like me

Or because now he thinks about me as a friend so he was worried