Bawat Piyesa | S. Manjiro

Her

DIARY; My unsaid thoughts.

This diary has only 5 entries. It was all my thoughts about my life from the start up to the present.

1st

When i was young, I used to write some of my thoughts in a notepad. My thoughts are always written on it dahil wala namang handang makinig sa mga istorya ko.

I am a middle child. An overachiever. Ever since I was in my elementary level- I had this feeling that I wanted to make everyone proud. I am scared to disappoint everyone. That's why i'm trying so hard to keep up with my smart classmates.

I thought that's only just a phase not until i reached highschool. I was scared to make friends but Avery came into my life.

She's like a sun who always shines on my darkest days. She loves singing,dancing, and even skating. Because of her, i learned how to skate.

I tried to join on different competitions like ice skating but my parents got mad at me. Sabi nila, dapat mag aral na lang ako.

My mom always pressures me to do my best. To not disappoint her. While my dad, he's just quiet. But everytime we're alone, he'll comfort me. Dad always said na he's proud of me pero mas gusto ko yan marinig sa mom ko.

I have two brothers. My older brother, he's busy with his own life. My little brother, favorite naman siya ni mama.

I have my cousins. I have a sister who treats me like her own sibling. She never fails to make me feel that i am loved and appreciated. I still remember her words na kung hindi na appreciate ni mama lahat ng

mga ginagawa ko, siya. Siya na appreciate niya.

I have Tita Mommy who always spoils me. She's the one who took care of me when i was still young. Sa kanila ako natuto paano magbasa at magsulat.

And, i have her. My grandma. My grandma loves to cook delicious food for me. Who loves to sing a lullaby when i can't sleep. Who loves to give me some of her money para makabili ako ng mga bagay na gusto ko.

She, who always protects me lalo na kay mama. My grandma loves me. She's always the proudest tuwing may achievement ako.

Sobrang thankful ako kasi i have them. But when i lost her, my best friend- Everything turned upside down. It was so hard for me to cope with her death. Dumagdag pa ang nangyari sa Lola ko.

Nawalan ako ng kakampi at kasama. Though, nandito naman sila ate pero iba pa rin kung nandito si Lola.

When my college days started, i was scared. Not because of new people. But sa course na kinuha ko. It was never my dream course. It was my parents' dream course for me.

Wala akong nagawa kundi i-take ito dahil sila ang nagpapaaral sa 'kin. I am envious. Naiinggit ako sa mga taong may supportive parents. Naiinggit ako sa mga taong nabigyan ng mga pagkakataon na piliin ang pangarap nila.

I sometimes wish na sana iba ang magulang ko sa next life ko. I hope they love me for who i am. Sana hindi nila ako pilitin sa mga hindi ko naman gusto. Sana close ako sa Mom ko.Sana open ako sa kanya sa lahat ng mga bagay.

2nd

I have a best friend. His name is Rindou.

He's sweet and kind. He never fails to assure me. He never fails to give me the love that i deserve.

He cares for me. He's like a brother. He always protects me. Tuwing may free time siya, aayain niya ako lumabas para madistract ako.

But everything changed, when one of us fell. I fell in love with him. And it made us tear apart.