Bawat Piyesa | S. Manjiro

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In Philosophy, there are 5 Phenomenological Notions of Death. First, Death is certain. It states that the world is governed by time. We have beginnings and also end-death because we are infinite beings. Whether we like it or not, we will die.

Death is indefinite. It can happen anytime. That's the reason why we should try to live the best of our lives.

Death is one's property. Death of a person only belongs to him. No one can experience his death except himself.

Death is non-relational. We die alone. We have no choice but to face it on our own.

Lastly, Death is not to be outstripped. It cannot be taken away from a person. We cannot remove the possibility of death in our lives.

Nakikita naman natin sa fiction yung idea of immortality and death. But in reality, death is definite. Nothing can be done to be outstripped.

You bite your lower lip as you close your book. "Tangina." You whispered.

For one last time, you stared at her. "I promise to live my life to the fullest without you pero sa ngayon let me grieve." You whispered and caressed your necklace. Suot suot mo ang dress na binigay niya.

"I love you sobra." You whispered again.

"Love, come here." Manjiro whispered kaya sumama ka sa kanya. You watched the staffs na kuhain ang kabaong ng lola mo.

The sky looks so gloomy. Mukhang uulan. "Nagpaalam ka na sa kanya?" He asked.

"Not yet." You answered. "I'm not ready to say goodbye."

You just want her back. You just want her to call your name again. Gusto mo ulit siya makasama tuwing nagsusulat ka sa notebook mo. Gusto mo ulit matikman yung pagtitimpla niya ng gatas. Gusto mo ulit matikman yung mga luto niya tulad ng champorado, sinigang na bangus, and also her pancakes.

Kung alam mo lang na mawawala siya agad. Sana inenjoy mo na lang yung araw na nandon ka sa tabi niya. Sana mas inexpress mo pa yung pagmamahal mo sa kanya.

"Y/N." Someone called your name at pagharap mo ay si Rindou lang pala.

"Rindou."

"I visited your grandma." He said at binigay sayo ang isang paper bag. "She said na ibigay ko raw sayo 'to pag nakauwi na siya."

Agad mong tinanggap ang binigay niya. "Thank you." You hugged him.

"Gagi pre, wag ka magselos ah." Rindou said.

"Oo naman, pinapatay na nga kita sa isipan ko e." Manjiro replied.

"Condolence." Rindou whispered.

"Gagi kung ako siguro si Manjiro, may grinipuhan na ako." You heard Ran's voice.

"Kaya nga kaso may respeto ako kay Lola." Your boyfriend answered.

"Aasa na naman yung isa jan kasi niyakap siya e." Kakucho said.

"Move on na beh." Parinig ni Sanzu.

Agad na bumitaw si Rindou at tinignan sila ng masama. "Mamaya kayo sa 'kin sa condo."

"Wag po, bata pa po kami!" Koko said.

"Ingay." Reklamo ni Izana.

Agad kayong tumingin kay Izana and you saw Ashy na kasama sila Emma. "Muling ibalik ang tami-"

"Walang babalik." Ashy said.

"Eme ka beh." Asar nila Baji.

"Kung ako sa inyo, mag comeback na lang kayo." Chifuyu said.

"Wow sabi ni boi slow burn nung high school. Ngayon lang namin nalaman kung sino kalandian mo. RED FLAG KA TINATAGO MO SAMIN SHOTA MO!" Kazutora said.

"Hindi sila mag shota, mag bff premium. 5 years or more subscription kaya hindi nag eexpired." Sabi ni Ryusei.

"Hindi ka nga sure kung mag bff premium pa rin e." Manjiro said as he wrapped his arms around you.

Nagbiruan lang sila to ease the sadness you have. Agad na tumahimik sila nung aalis na. Kanya kanyang sakay sa mga sasakyan.

Kasama mo ang pamilya mo sa car habang nakasunod naman ang mga kaibigan mo. Tahimik ka lang habang nasa byahe habang ang mga katabi mo ay umiiyak.

Wala sa plano mo ang umiyak pero mukhang magagawa mo 'yon mamaya lalo na pag nag sink in na lahat.

Mabilis lang ang naging byahe papunta sa cemetery. May mass pa bago siya ihatid sa huling hantungan.

After mass, biglang umulan. Nagpayong agad sila habang ikaw ay nagpabasa lang sa ulan. Hawak hawak mo ang puting rosas. Nagsisimula na mag sink in sayo lahat when they started na ibalik ang mga lupang hinukay nila.

You stepped forward and stared at her. "I love you so much. Babalik po ako dito na nakuha ang gusto ko." You whispered and threw the white rose.

Nag umpisa na silang umalis habang ikaw ay nakatitig lang sa lola mo. "Uwi na tayo." Your ate said.

"Go home without me."

"Magkakasakit ka."

"Okay lang ako, ate. I just want to enjoy this last moment." You said.

Agad na nangilid ang luha niya. "If you need me, call me."

"Yes."

You slowly kneeled down. "I want to sleep here. Can you please visit me sa dreams ko? Kahit saglit lang po."

"Ayaw mo na po ba sa 'kin? Pagod ka na po bang intindihin ako?" You questioned her.

"Lola, please come back." You begged and let your tears fall.

Your cousins have their own parents. Ang mga kapatid mo naman ay paborito ng mga magulang mo. Paano ka ngayon? She's the only one na meron ka pero nawala pa. Siya lang ang takbuhan mo. Siya lang ang nakakaintindi sayo.

You let yourself cry habang malakas ang buhos ng ulan. Everything is tiring. You just want to give up.

"You have me, mahal." Someone spoked behind you and you saw Mikey na nakapayong.

"You still have me and i will never leave your side."

He slowly sat beside you at pinatay ang payong niya. "Continue grieving, mahal ko. Continue crying hanggang sa gumaan ang pakiramdam mo."

Agad kang yumakap sa kanya and sobbed in his arms. Kung wala siguro siya baka sumunod ka na rin sa lola mo.

Having Manjiro beside you will always be the greatest gift. He's really your Bawat Piyesa.

"You can grieve whenever you want pero after that you should fight again. You should live your life." He said.

The only thing you can do right now is umiyak. You can only cry and grieve. You can only wish for her na bisitahin ka sa mga panaginip mo.

The rain stopped pouring. "Please visit me in my dreams. I love you so much, Lola." You whispered.

"Ako na po bahala sa kanya." Manjiro said.

You broke down again when you saw her name. Agad ka namang niyakap ni Manjiro.

"Shh.. i love you. Makakalagpas din tayo dito. Kakayanin natin." He whispered.

You will forever live here in my heart. Mahal na mahal kita. I will miss you. Thank you for loving me. I tend to be so stubborn, please guide me from above.