a kiss goodbye | vampire gerard way x female reader

4. Stop Ignoring Us!

and so i did. the whole week passed, and i didn't talk once to either one of the guys. they tried to talk to me, gerard texted me, but i just think that it's better off this way. it's now monday, and i'm just getting ready for school. i put on my usual makeup, and let my hair down. i brushed it cuz it was all tangled up, before putting on my outfit. i put on some chapstick because my lips were dry, before putting it inside my bag. i looked in the mirror for the last time before going out of my room. i quickly drank my cappuccino, before putting on my shoes and leaving the house. i made my way slowly to the bus stop, already seeing gerard. but this time, he wasn't alone. his friends were with him. just looking at them made me stressed, i could feel a tight knot in my stomach. i looked to the ground, with my hands in my pockets, praying to god they won't see me. "please don't look behind. please don't look behind"  i kept on saying in my head. of course he had to turn around, just when i thought about it. my eyes met gerard's, as i felt my heart drop. fuck.
- y/n! - ray said, as now all the guys were looking at me because of gerard turning around. my gaze turned to the concrete yet again, as i kept on walking. when i got to the bus stop, i leaned back on the bus sign. i took my phone and headphones out, before playing "today" by the smashing pumpkins. they were still calling my name, i could hear it through my quiet music. but i tried my best to not give in. i don't want to mess up again, that gerard situation was enough. i should've known better than to have a sleepover with a guy who i've known for like 6 hours. suddenly i felt hands on my shoulders. i looked up from my phone, taking out one of my headphones, only to face ray. i kept a poker face, but i could feel stress filling my whole entire body yet again.
- come on, it's been a whole week! stop ignorning us! - he said with a sad look on his face. i remained silent, looking behind him at his friends. they were all looking at me concerned, except for gerard. he had his arms crossed, and he looked... mad? annoyed? probably because of me. should i give in? i mean.. they didn't do anything. it was my fault, right? i looked once again at ray, before taking out the other headphone. i put my phone along with the headphones in my bag.
- why are you even ignoring us? what did we do? i mean, seriously! - frank finally spoke, and he was raising his voice at me. i could see by the look on his face that he is as mad as gerard is. i looked down, before i finally spoke up.
- i... i dont know.. - i muttered out, still looking at my feet.
- okay, well are you still mad at us? - ray said, and i looked at him. i hesitated a bit, but i shook my head.
- that's great! - he said smiling widely at me. i couldn't help but smile as well, as the other guys cheered. well except for gerard, he was still uninterested with my existence, and he was looking at the street. "what the fuck is his problem?"  i said in my thoughts, furrowing my brows. and that's when his eyes finally landed on me. his stare sent shivers down my spine, as it was cold, angry, just full of negative emotions. i felt my heart drop again, before the bus finally came. we all kept on talking the whole ride. again, everyone was invested, except for gerard. "seriously, what the fuck is his problem?"

time skip

the day went by pretty quick. gerard still hasn't spoken to me, but the other guys did. it was now the end of the day, and we all said our goodbyes. just like last monday, we parted our ways...

at least i thought so.

i could hear footsteps right behind me. i decided to look behind, and i saw gerard. his eyes were piercing through my soul, making me swallow my saliva.
- what? - he said coldly with no emotions.
- why are you walking this way? - i asked him, still looking into his beautiful eyes.
- well, you promised me last monday, that you'd show me the shortcut to our neighborhood - he said and i nodded. i looked around, wonderning "where's mikey?"
- well okay, but where's your brother? - he raised his eyebrows, before speaking up.
- he took a bus with the guys. they're going to the mall - he said and i nodded.
- why didn't you go with them? - i asked as i was genuinely curious.
- didn't feel like it. plus i'd love to spend the day with you ... if you want to of course. - he said, and i couldn't help but giggle. finally, he wasn't mad at me.
- of course! - i said, before he started walking, and so did i. we were now walking next to each other, i took his hand into mine, and dragged him until we were in front of his house. he opened the door with his keys, and we both took off our shoes, and went straight to his room. we sat is silence on his bed, as i turned my head to examine his room yet again.
- so... how's it going with eliza? - i said, and gerard remained silent for a few seconds."was this a wrong question?"  i thought to myself, before he spoke up.
- we.. we b-broke up - he said, his voice was now less happier. i turned my head to face him, and i saw tears forming in his eyes, as they drifted off to his lap.
- i'm so sorry.. it's all my fault - i said awkwardly, as i put my hand on his knee. he slowly put his hand on mine, caressing it softly.
- it's not your fault. don't worry... - he said, as his voice cracked a little. i sighed, and we sat in silence. suddenly i felt something wet hitting my hand. i looked at our hands, and back at gerard. he was crying, soon he started sobbing. my heart just broke down into little pieces, as the view was truly depressing. i didn't know what to really do, so i just hugged him. he hugged me back, gripping me tight. he was now sobbing violently into my neck, as i caressed his back with my hands, trying to cheer him up a little. i started saying sweet nothings into his ear, and after a few minutes, his sobbing silenced. i broke the hug, and he looked into my eyes. i started examining his whole face yet again. his black hair, pale skin, hazel eyes, and the way his face was still sad... he looks so goddamn good. we were holding the constant eye contact, and i could swear again, that he was leaning forward. i leaned as well, and soon our lips connected. fireworks went down in my stomach, and i've never felt this before. i moaned into the kiss a little, and gerard smirked against my lips. his lips were a bit chapped, and i could taste a hint of cigarettes. after a bit of a 'make out' we pulled away, and i looked into his eyes. we sat in silence, which made me uncomfortable as fuck. i quickly looked away, but he kept his stare at me.