a kiss goodbye | vampire gerard way x female reader

6. Are You Single?

a few days passed since the sleepover at gerard's. we kinda got in a bigger fight, just because i was texting frank. I don't understand why he got so jealous. we still spend time at school together (with the whole group). but gerard has been distant lately. we just exchange "hey's" or "wassup's". i don't know what he expects me to do, apologize? come on, it's my business. i text who i want and when i want, and he has nothing to do about it. anyway. it was now lunch and we were sitting at the bleachers outside as usual. i was looking around, observing the autumn leaves moving with the wind.
- so how you been, y/n? - frank asked me, eating his big ass subway sandwich.
- good i guess. what about you frank? - i shrugged and returned the question. he nodded slowly, before speaking.
- I've been great - he answered my question and i nodded. silence once again filled the air, and i couldn't help but sigh.
- hey, I've been wondering.. would you like to go out with me after school? like, to mcdonalds or something.. maybe a record store if you'd like - he said nervously, his hands were shaking and he got a bit red. i smirked a little, and looked deep into his eyes before nodding.
- yeah, i would love to! - i said and he smiled as his hands stopped shaking.
- okay, I'll text you later about it - he said and i nodded smiling from ear to ear.
"I'm so excited!"   i said in my head. i turned to look at gerard, and to my surprise he was already staring at me. his gaze was cold, lifeless.. i could feel a pit forming in my stomach. my breathing hitched, and i looked away.

time skip

i was now laying in my bed, waiting for frank to come to my house. we agreed on meeting at 3 pm, and going to mcdonalds and then to a vinyl shop. it was now 2:55 pm, and i was already done with my makeup and clothes. i was playing a game on my phone, when suddenly frank called.
- hey girl, come outside, I'm waiting for you - he said.
- oh alright! see ya - i said hanging up, and going upstairs. i put on my black converse shoes, and walked out. i looked around for any signs of frank around. as i did, i felt a pair of hands around my waist. as i jumped up and was ready to scream, i turned around just to face frank. i playfully and lightly punched his arm.
- oh my fucking god frank! you scared the living shit out of me! - i said, and he couldn't contain his laughter.
- sorry y/n - he apologized, still laughing as hard as before. i smiled and rolled my eyes at him playfully before lightly pushing him.
- come on, let's go! - i said impatiently, and he started going to his car. he opened the door for me and when i finally got in, he got into the driver's seat. he started the engine, and we kept the conversation going.

time skip

- hey i have a question if you don't mind - frank said, eating his fries. i pulled away from my burger and looked at him.
- whats up - i said, taking another bite. he sighed, and looked away for a second, just to look back at me again.
- are you single? - he said quietly, and his face became pink. i smirked a little, before nodding my head.
- oh... alright. cool... - he said nodding his head slowly.

time skip again......

there's not much to tell about this "date". we ate some vegan burgers with fries, and then we went to the vinyl store. he got me my most wanted record, which i wanted to pay for, but he fought with me about it. honestly, the whole hangout was nice, and i would love to go out with him more. but... this whole time i felt like someone was watching us. i kept looking behind me, but no one was there. maybe it was just my imagination? i don't know. it probably was. anyway. i was in my bed thinking about frank, when suddenly i heard a knock on my door. i got scared, but got up and opened it thinking it was just my mom. i looked to the right, and i saw a figure standing in the dark. i jumped up a bit, before i heard the person speak.
- hey y/n - gerard said, and i tried my best to see him better.
- what the fuck are you doing? - i questioned him, confused and frustrated by his actions.
- what do you mean? - his voice had confusion written all over it.
- well gerard, you've been fucking ignoring me for god knows how many days, and now suddenly you remembered me and decided to come into my house?  - i said angrily, crossing my arms at my chest. i looked at him with furrowed brows, before he spoke.
- look, y/n... I'm sorry if you felt like I've been ignoring you. it's just.. after that fight i felt so stupid and embarrassed.. -  he put his hands on my waist, and i immediately took them off.

gerard's pov

- i'm glad you felt like that. what even was your problem with me texting frank? I don't get it! -  she said coldly, as i felt a sharp pain in my heart. why is she so mean?
- please y/n, forgive me - i said, as i felt tears forming in my eyes. she scoffed, turning her head to the other side. i could feel the tears falling down my cheeks, as she turned her head back at me. when she noticed me crying her eyes went completely wide. i quickly wiped the tears with the sleeve of my hoodie, and looked down at my feet. I didn't want her to see me like that.
"fuck, was i too harsh?"  she thought to herself and i shook my head slightly to myself.
- sorry, it's not your fault - i said, wiping more tears. she suddenly hugged me, and i seriously got the biggest butterflies ever. her beautiful scent could make me go nuts.

y/n pov

- it's alright gerard, I'm not mad. come in - i said pulling away from the hug and dragging him to my room. he looked around it, touching some of my vinyls and cds. then he noticed my big stash of dc and marvel comics, and i scratched my neck in embarrassment of my hyperfixation.
- no way dude! you like dc and marvel? that's so cool! - he said, as his eyes lit up.
- i mean, it's not that big of a deal.. - i mumbled quietly under my nose.
- it is a big deal, you're a chick! - he said and looked at the comics one last time. i shrugged, not understanding his point. i have a lot of female friends who also read comics. i guess he just hasn't met a lot of girls with the same interests as us. he then went to look in detail at my CDs, noticing a la dispute one. he took it in hand, and stared at it with his mouth wide open.
- you listen to them? - he looked over at me, his mouth still open wide. i giggled at him, and nodded. he mumbled out a "wow", before placing the cd back down. he kept looking at my stuff, and asking me about it. honestly it was nice, you know. talking to him. i missed it. I don't know, i just feel like he fills a hole in me. he makes me feel complete.. i don't know how else to describe it, cuz I'm not trying to sound corny. anyway. we sat on my bed, and talked about a lot of stuff. but one thing lead to another, and i was laying with my head on his chest, as he was playing with my (haircolor) hair. this felt so nice, i never wanted to pull away. i smiled to myself, and closed my eyes.
"this is nice.."  i thought to myself, and looked up at gerard. he smiled at me, and i felt my insides melt.
"do i have a crush on him? fuck."  i quickly turned my gaze back down, and closed my eyes. he chuckled to himself, and i felt confused.
- what's so funny? - i asked him, and he got serious.
- you're just so cute, you know? - he said, putting his hand under my chin making me look at him. i couldn't help but blush, and i looked away. he chuckled again, and i just rolled my eyes at him.

time skip

i woke up, missing the feeling of another person next to me. i sat straight up, and examined everything around me. i quickly came to realisation that gerard left. i sighed sadly, and laid back down. why does he have to be so confusing? i hate him for that. i got ready for school, and went straight to it.

everything went smoothly, time was passing fast and i was glad for that. throughout the whole day, there was no sign of gerard. i kept on sighing to myself, thinking about him. fuck i might have a crush on him. for real.