a kiss goodbye | vampire gerard way x female reader

13. I Love You...

- i love you... - he mumbled. my eyes went wide, i could feel my cheeks burning. i couldn't say a single word, i felt like someone was choking me. i felt butterflies in my stomach, with this weird pain in my chest. i didn't know what to say, as many thoughts came to my mind. he moaned sleepily again, brushing his face on my shoulder. i blushed even harder and i couldn't help but gasp a little.
- g-goodnight. - i stuttered out, as he chuckled lowly.
- night - he said back, and soon he drifted off to sleep.

"fuck" that's all i could think of now.

i sighed, trying to get out of his grip, but it tightened around me. i sighed again, finally giving in and falling asleep as well.

i woke up to gerard playing a game on his phone. i don't think he noticed that i wasn't asleep anymore, cause he was still focused on the game. his eyebrows were a bit furrowed, he was biting his bottom lip, focusing his eyes on the screen. i giggled a little, hugging his arm. he flinched, finally looking at me, and turning his phone off.
- good morning - he said, still shocked. i smiled at him, hugging his arm tighter.
- morning - i said back with my deep "just got out of bed" voice. he soon smiled, looking deep into my eyes.
- did you sleep well sugar? - he asked me, and i blushed at the nickname. i nodded, letting out a "mhm". he nodded slowly, still smiling.
- good - he said, before looking at the ceiling and sighing.

- I don't wanna go to that stupid fucking school - i groaned, and he giggled.
- me too, me too.. - he agreed with me, before sighing again.
- then let's not go - i said, sitting straight up. he was still laying down, with his right arm under his head, and the other arm on his stomach. he raised his eyebrow, smirking a little.
- we didn't go last time - he pointed out, earning a groan from me.
- come onnn - i begged him, trying to make puppy eyes. he rolled his eyes, smiling at me.
- alright, you got me - he said defeated. i punched the air in victory, before shouting "WOOHOO!".

today's gonna be great.

... i might have been wrong.

we went to the kitchen, where mikey was already making pancakes for us. we sat at the dinning table, with coffee mugs in front of us.
- can i smoke here? - i questioned gerard, earning a nod from him. i nodded as well, before going back to his room to grab my pack of cigarettes, from the pocket of my hoodie. i also took my lighter, and my phone, before going back. when i stepped into the kitchen, the pancakes were done. i quickly lit up my cigarette, taking a deep drag. i sat on the chair in front of gerard, leaning my head off the backrest while blowing smoke. i sighed, scratching my head and taking another drag. we all sat in silence, as the boys were busy eating. i decided to check my phone for any messages.

and there it was...

frank texted me.

i could feel my heart drop down to my stomach, i felt tears forming in my eyes, and i couldn't breathe properly. i quickly put out the cigarette on the tray that was on the table and excused myself. i ran to the bathroom, still having a fucking panic attack. i don't know why i'm so anxious about this, he just cheated, and i'm out here acting like he murdered my entire family. damn. i sighed, finally reading the text.

(bold - you, normal - frank)

you really got over me fast, huh?

i stared at his text, completely confused. "what was the context?" i thought to myself.

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