Then Where Is Home?

Chapter 25

Tw for this chapter: Smoking, weed, mentioned sh, panic attack, fighting/screaming, mentioned suicidal ideation, mentioned suicidal tendencies, mentioned past suicide, mentioned past suicide attempts, mentioned past abuse

Tommy and Tubbo fully climbed onto the roof to smoke the joint, just so there would be no chance of the smell coming inside. They knew that Wilbur had gone over to Eret and Niki's for the night so there would be no chance of him catching them.

Once they finished one they began to climb back inside, trying to not make too much noises but failing once Tommy watched Tubbo nearly face plant trying to get back into through the window.

"You fucking dumbass!" Tommy said loudly, laughing while pointing at Tubbo was now laying on the floor, also laughing.

"Shut it!" Tubbo said, but he was full on giggling so it came more out like "shit it" which just made them laugh even more.

"Okay shush, we have to be quiet so shhhhh!" Tommy said loudly, which just made Tubbo laugh even more because Tommy was the one being loud as fuck. They couldn't stop laughing for a few moments, to the point where they were clutching their stomachs and their faces hurt from smiling.

Downstairs Ranboo laid on the extra bed in Techno's room. It was a little past 1am so Techno was already sleep but Ranboo couldn't seem to fall asleep, he had spent over 24 hours sleeping, so maybe that was the reason. He wanted to go talk to Tubbo but wasn't sure if they were awake.

Until he heard footsteps walking around in the hallway upstairs to that meant someone was awake. He decided he would take his chance and carefully slipped out of bed and out of Techno's room. He made his way upstairs right as Tommy's door closed. He didn't think too much of it so he walked over and knocked on it.

"Yeah?" Tommy called from the other side.

"It's Ranboo." Ranboo said and after a moment of no answer he opened up the door. Tommy was sitting on his bed, Tubbo sitting on the floor against the wall beneath the window. At once Ranboo smelled weed and frowned.

"What do you need?" Tommy asked him.

"I wanted to come apologize but, are you guys smoking weed?" Ranboo asked, Tommy and Tubbo just looked at each other and burst out into another fit of laughter. "Are you kidding me?"

"What?" Tubbo asked, slowly stopping laughing.

"You guys are smoking? Right after everything that happened the other night? I asked you to stop smoking." Ranboo frowned and Tubbo shrugged.

"I don't know what you want from me Boo." Tubbo said lightly as he swayed around a bit. Ranboo stared at him.

"I literally just told you what I want from you." Ranboo said as he folded his arms.

"Yeah well that's not gonna happen and it's bullshit that you think I'm giving up all kinds of smoking." Tubbo said.

"Why is that bullshit? I care about you and want you to be okay, smoking is just slowly killing you." Ranboo snapped and Tubbo scoffed.

"It's bullshit because it makes me feel some what okay and it's bullshit that you think I'm just going to be okay." Tubbo snapped back.

"I know you're not okay, I'm not thinking you're just going to be okay." Ranboo retorted.

"You thought I would just be okay with you fucking killing yourself on that bridge? You think I would be okay with that? You think that if I lost you too, that I would be okay?" Tubbo said as he stood up from the floor. He still swayed where he was standing.

"No, and I never once said that, so don't put words in my mouth." Ranboo said in a low tone but Tubbo rolled his eyes.

"You fucking act like it, and this shit makes me feel somewhat okay. It makes me feel like I can fucking get through the shit you are putting me through." Tubbo frowned and Ranboo felt his heart drop a bit.