TW for this chapter: Mentioned Suicidal ideation/suicide watch, mentioned past rape, mentioned past abuse, begging to be killed, ED, mentioned drugs, breakdown/panic attack
Wilbur spent most of the day up in Phil's room with his father, partly so he could give Tommy space like he asked and partly because he just felt so generally shitty. Phil was also gently concerned because he wasn't sure if Wilbur was still having suicidal ideation or not.
When Phil asked Wilbur if he felt like he was still suicidal the "response" he got was a grunt and Wilbur hid himself under blankets more. Phil just rolled his eyes playfully and texted Techno that Wilbur should be kept on suicide watch for now. Techno responded that he'll make sure Wilbur sleeps in his room for now.
Phil said that he and Wilbur would eat upstairs to give Tommy space, which was appreciated by Tommy and Techno. So when it was getting time for lunch Tommy again was sitting at the table while Techno cooked.
"What kind of sandwich do you want? Grilled Cheese? BLT? Turkey?" Techno asked Tommy and Tommy shrugged. He had said earlier that he would eat more for lunch but he was regretting it now.
"Dunno." Tommy said simply and Techno looked at Tommy with a look that Tommy could only read as pity.
"I know it's tough Toms, but even just a few bites is good enough." Techno said but Tommy just shrugged again. "What about a chicken sandwich? Or ham?"
"I said I don't fucking know Techno." Tommy snapped and Techno looked taken aback. Tommy's face immediately is filled with regret and Techno could see tears welling in his eyes. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I didn't mean to snap at you, I'm sorry." Tommy said quickly before he burst out into tears.
"Hey, it's okay." Techno said as he walked over to Tommy. He bent down and looked at Tommy. "Can I give you a hug?" He asked and Tommy nodded. Techno hugged Tommy as Tommy cried. "I'm not mad, okay?"
"I'm still sorry." Tommy sobbed and Techno felt sad, he knew it was just the trauma that he went through that caused Tommy to panic anytime he showed anger but it was a sad sight to see.
"I was the one who pushed you when I shouldn't have, so I'm the one who should be apologizing." Techno said but Tommy shook his head.
"No, you didn't do anything wrong." Tommy said as he pulled away. He tried wiping at the tears on his face but they were quickly replaced with more. "Recovery is just so fucking hard."
"It is, and I won't tell you otherwise, but you don't have to deal with it by yourself." Techno said and Tommy rolled his eyes lightly, he had heard this a million times by now.
"I know it's just so hard accepting that I have to recover in the first place, it's hard accepting that I'm broken." Tommy sighed and Techno frowned.
"You're not broken." Techno argued and Tommy shook his head.
"You don't have to recover from something if you're healthy, you don't see people who are okay go through recovery. You only have to fix something if it's broken." Tommy said, still trying to wipe away the tears falling down his face.
"But Tommy you aren't broken." Techno repeated. Tommy looked up at him.
"Then what am I Techno? What am I if I'm not fucking broken?" Tommy snapped again, but this time he didn't apologize. Techno just stood there quiet, he didn't have an answer.
Instead he just stood up from the table, this time making his way upstairs and to his own room. Techno heard the door slam and not a moment later Phil came out of his room, coming down the stairs to see what was happening.
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Fanfiction"Liam!" Tommy yelled, running forward out into the rain. He felt sick to his stomach and he felt like maybe he was dreaming, but Wilbur had just woken him up so he knew he wasn't dreaming. Techno stepped aside as Tommy ran up and hugged Liam tightly...
