Manik's pov
I never thought two months without nandini would be this bad, it's horrible. Its like the sky without stars at night or the sun without it's rays. I feel hammered, lost, like a robot just doing things with no feelings because she has them all
All my emotions and feelings are Nandini's, she owns them all. I can't believe this, I am so fucking stupid for pulling that shit in my anger.
That evening when I walked out of her room I knew she was sobbing, I could hear her but I knew she needed time, she wanted me to trust her and I do, I trust her completely but my anger is the worst thing about me
I couldn't take it anymore, I see her all the time because I am a god damn stalker, i always go to the firm after work or to her house and I just watch her, she isn't happy either, trust me, I know
I was off from set at 8 and it was 8:20 pm, I was standing in front of her house again but this time I wasn't going to just watch, I am going to talk to her because yes I messed up but I can't take this anymore, it's painful
Putting the code in I walk inside, trust me I was a bit surprised that she hadn't changed it but I was glad she hadn't. I hear her whimpers, she was crying making my heart bleed. I knew my anger was dangerous but fuck, I know I also need to get it together for her.
Walking towards her room, I saw her sitting on the floor, her back resting on the side of her bed, her knees drawn into her chest
"Nandini" I whisper
Her eyes shot up to look at me.
"Im sorry sweet girl" I whisper
She runs into my arms wrapping her arms aorund my neck as I bend a little to pick her up. Her legs lock behind my hips, her face in my neck as she cries
"Im sorry little one, im so sorry. I promise you it won't ever happen again. No matter how pissed and angry I am I will never raise my voice at you, and I will always be mindful of my words" I whisepr rubbing her back
"Manik" she cries louder in my neck
"Shh shh im so sorry, I know you asked for time but I can't stay away anymore, please. I am sorry Nandini, I can do anything for your forgiveness please"
"I can't I can't live without you" she whispers making my heart beat a little better
"Neither can I, I am sorry doll, I didn't mean to raise my voice at you and I didn't want to hurt you"
"You didn't trust me" she mumbles crying
"I know, Nandini I swear it wasn't that I didn't trust you, my anger was blinding me"
"I even swore on my parent's grave" my heart literally breaks into pieces
"Nandini im sorry little one, I promise it won't happen again"
"You promise not to do that to me every again?" She asks
"I promise, if I ever raise my voice at you, I give you permission to do anything you want, even hit me"
"I don't want HR to file a violence complaint" she mumbles making me chuckle
"They won't, please forgive me nandini. You know you mean the world to me"
she pulls back a little looking at me, I couldn't help but lean forward and kiss her head
"Im sorry doll" I whisper
"It hurt really bad, mani I would never do anything to hurt your image plus all the moments we spend together are so private and precious to me that I would never even think about sharing it like that to the public" she justifies
Sighing I sit down on her couch, with her in my arms.
"Nandini I know, I trust you with my life, I really do. it washy anger that ruined it all but like I said I promise you, it will never happen again"
"You pinky promise?" She asks sniffling
"Yes doll, I pinky promise" I mumble linking my pinkie with hers, she kisses her thumb while I kiss mine solidifying the promise
"It was bad without you" she tells me making me smile
"You have no idea how much pain, physical pain I was in"
Hearing me she leans her head forward resting it against mine as her breathing goes back to normal. Her presence alone is enough to make me calm and the way her head rests against mine is so peaceful
"You have stubbles mani" she whispers caressing my cheeks
"I know you don't like them".I mention
"No I actually have grown to like it, mhm it's fun" she says rubbing her cheek against mine making me smile as I lean back on the couch
"Nandini I am sorry, I genuinely am so sorry. I was in a very bad space already coming back from Pune, I am not even sure how I even reached here, I kind of checked out a little and when I saw this news I freaked out further. My reaction was horrible and so wrong, I promise from now on, no matter how angry or upset I am, I will never use such words. And I am not saying all this because I want to make you feel guilty, I don't. Trust me doll, I know how much I fucked up and I know I couldn't make it up to you by pushing you so I gave you the space you needed"
She nods hearing me, her hands still on my face as she calms me down with her touch
"I really wanted to respect your decision but I swear nandini it's very hard to be okay and pretend to be okay"
"It was like someone had placed a weight on my chest" she whispers playing with the hem of my t shirt
"I felt the same way"
"I thought you didn't trust me" I tilt her chin up so her eyes look in mine
"I wasn't in the right headspace sweet girl, it wasn't that I didn't trust you, it was me being dumb and taking it all out on you" she nods making me smile
"So if we ever have a disagreement or are fighting about something can you please not scream at me?" She asks, her head tilts a bit
"Never, I won't raise my voice at you"
"When you and I became friends, I didn't even know you'd wanna be friends, yes I was a big fan of you and I still am a huge fan but I would never do something so cheap. My motive with you has never been to get something out of your followers or your fans, it's honestly not clear what I want with you mani but I know it's not bad things"
"I understand"
"I never thought that you and I would even be anything more than friends but when you asked me out on a date, I didn't even tell navy for a while because I wasn't sure what to say or how to put it" her fingers were running along the hem of my t shirt around my neck as she spoke
"Our first date wasn't what I had heard people describe" she whispers
"In a good way?" I ask
"Yes, I had butterflies in my stomach, the rides were so fun because your hand was in mine, the horrible pizza you refused to believe was horrible even tasted better because I was having it with you and that horrendous water"
"Nandini water is tasteless" I interrupt
"No, not true, my water is better"
"It's because you have lemon water or flavoured water because of your diabetes"
"Oh shut up, but still like I was saying before I was rudely interrupted by a monster, everything tastes better with you, my life is better with you" she mumbles with the sweetest smile on her face
"So what you are saying is you like me huh?" Her laugh echos in the room making me smile
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RomanceManik Malhotra, the heartthrob of India, he has taken everyone's heart with his angelic voice, he has recognition and fame but is he actually happy? Nandini, a girl who works at a publishing firm, she is this bubbly sweet girl but does she have demo...
