TANGLED❤️‍

Chapter 30

The small tight space was closing and I was going to get crushed, there was no getting out of this because when those walls move closer I won't be able to breath.

Sweat building up on my face and body as I banged on that door screaming for my mom to open the door but all I heard was silence, something I had began to live with.

"Fuckkk"I mumble waking up

It was a fucking nightmare again, the same one that won't leave my head, it's back. I realized the gasp I heard in my nightmare wasn't actually the dream, it was me gasping for air

"Nandini" I whisper looking around but she wasn't there

"Nandini" I screamed this time and head something drop in the balcony

Before I could get up to run to the balcony, Nandini comes running into the room, she looks at me analyzing me almost and instantly she sits beside me wrapping her arms around me

"Breath, I'm right here" she whispers rubbing my back

"I I didn't find you" I whisper in her neck

"I was just in the balcony, I couldn't sleep but im right here"

Taking a huge breath I push her back a little laying on top of her with some of my weight, I have realized the best way to calm down form nightmares or being anxious is laying down on Nandini in a way where ears land right on her heart so I can hear the rhythm of her heart

Once she told me how my heart beats to hers and she isn't wrong because my heart only beats to the tune and the rhythm of her heart like our hearts were meant to beat together like two strings on a guitar that just sound better together than alone

"Everything is okay, you aren't back in that place anymore" she whispers

"I mhm I was I was in the attic and I the walls, they were closing in, I I tried to but I couldn't leave" I try explaining

"You are in your room that is bigger than two rooms combined and you aren't being suffocated by the walls, you are laying on top of me listening to my heart beat against yours"

"I thought I would not get out of there" I mumble

"Shh it's okay, you are okay hun"

Though she was telling me I was okay and though I knew she was right here, my head was somewhere else, I couldn't forget that day

"My mom, she got upset that I told my friends at school about how I didn't get dinner because she was out with some friends and she she put in in the attic and I couldn't breath. She wouldn't let me out" I mumble

"You are safe" I hear her

"I can't stay here" I whisper

"It's okay, ill pack up the little unpacking I did and we can stay at a hotel" she says kissing my hair

I hum sniffling a little, as I catch up on my breathing matching hers

"When my parents passed away it felt like that pain would never go away, it felt like I was so alone in this world. Everything was so unexpected and for years I just sat in a corner sulking but you know Manik my chachi she told me something"

"What?" I ask looking up a little

"She told me that I could sit there and sulk or I could get up and do things I love" I look at her confused before laying on my back feeling my breathing back to normal

She smiles laying on my chest, her chin under her hands as she looks at me with that beautiful smile of hers

"You know Manik we will never be able to change things that happened to us in our past or the things that hurt us back then but right now you and I bth have each other. We can either try to heal together or we can dwell on the past, now that doesn't mean that we don't talk about our past, instead that means we talk it through, we live those hurtful moments again and heal together"