I'm scared that I'll get comfortable
I'm scared I will never find love
I'm afraid of sex
what if this is it
what if it doesn't get better
and this is it
what am I holding on for?
what am I waiting for
I'm afraid the coffee will get cold
and no one will want it
that they'll feel it
taste it
and run away
I made it to 20
almost 21
no one understands
how big of a deal this is
that I wake up
that I choose life
I'm afraid
I'm afraid that 25 will never come
I'm afraid every day that the demons will win
they are like vampires
so I give them blood
I cut and feed them
like a mother bird to her babies
