AFTER YOU | ENHYPEN (히승/ HEESEUNG)

13: decision

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He look at me in disbelief , he cupped his face and brushes his hair to the back making his hair become a lil bit messy. I sigh and before speaking to him again, "why are you being like this heeseung?!" I ask and sigh, Looking  into his eyes.

"I just have you, I don't have any options. I don't want to take my mother's option, I just want you. Can't you just help me even if it's not as lover then help me as a friend !" he say as he rise his voice and got more higher than before, I was stunned .

Literally everything he said is right, maybe if I just help him as a friend it wouldn't hurt. My emotion really did take over myself, I'm just too harsh. "If you can't accept me that's fine ! But accept me as friends at least! The least you could do, why is it so hard for you ? I'm trying my best to show you how much I needed you ! But all you do is pushing me away ! Do you know how ridiculous you are right now ! You keep pushing me away after having all of me , and you just keep going back instead of looking forward!

And right now, all I need is for you to accompany me for only one night! Did I ask something bigger huh ! Can't you just being helpful." He yelled, sounds desperate and frustrated with all the things now.

"DID I EVEN ASK YOU TO DO THE THINGS  I DON'T ASK FOR ?!" I snap  back and stare into  his cold dark  iris. He looks so shock and lost for word. He takes a few seconds and calm himself, he look at me and sigh, shaking his head in disbelief with my actions.

"You're so mean.." the last word he says before leaving me behind.

Why'd I even met him in the first place, everything was good when he's not here but everything change when he came back. This is all messed up, how can I be so harsh to the person that help me at my lowest. He's the one who help me and cover everything that supposed to shown. I needed someone and he was there all along, but all I do is being a freaking great harsh person he will ever met.

I'm on my knees and lean to the wall behind me, questioning everything I had done to him. "How could you do this haneul.." I hit my head few times before bursting to tears. All I know is to cry and didn't take any action towards my behavior, I hurt people but why am I crying.

Why is it so hard for me to forget you, all I want is the best for you and not more than that. And this is not the best way to cut ties with you, we're not meant to be even if we have feelings for each other. And I know you always needs me, your actions speaks louder than you action. If I needs you too but if at the end we gonna part away what's the point leaning towards each other now.

I cupped my face and comeback to reality after one of the worker called me from inside. Once I goes back in I stand in front of the cashier and casually zoned out into my thoughts.

"Is he your boyfriend?" I heard a voice and look beside me, Is hyewon who scrolling through her phone while waiting for my answer. I quickly shake my head and smile awkwardly, " no.. we're not.. he's -" my word got cutt before I can finish it.

"I know him. Lee Heeseung right? He's the heir of H.Ls company. Are you dating him?" She ask, not showing any emotions towards me. I hesitantly to answer her, I really don't have any idea why she asking me now. "You sure you gonna date him ? I suggest you to stop meeting him. He such a jerk, he left after he gets what he want." She frown.

I tilted my head before asking her, " have you dated him  before? How can you know all of this ?" I asked, how did hyewon know heeseung ?

She clicked her tongue and smirk, sit up straight and turned off her phone. "He just left me for some random girl and I knew it he's cheating on me. You don't have to know, I'm just telling you to be precautions" she say and smile afterwards, going back into the kitchen.