just as i was about to fall backwards i heard luke scream in front of me.
i looked over and saw all four of them standing in front of me.
i quickly threw my phone to the side and stood there emotionless.
"why baby? please don't do this. i will help you. let me help you. i didn't know you were this hopeless." luke spoke with tears streaming down his face.
i almost felt bad.
"i-i just cant do this anymore luke. it's too much for me. i haven't been happy in so long. i cant do this anymore." i spoke as i inched closer to the edge.
"please stop moving backwards." michael spoke.
i looked at all their faces.
all of them were crying but calum who had tears in his eyes.
"i'm so sorry." i whispered.
"no, please savannah please." luke begged.
"i love you guys. thank you for showing me what my life could have been. thank you for loving me even though i couldn't love myself. this isn't your fault." i sobbed as tears poured down my face.
"savannah no." calum spoke firmly.
"goodbye." i whispered as i fell backwards.
suddenly, i felt a firm hand grab mine.
no? no! i wanted to die!
"let go!" i yelled as i struggled to make the person holding my hand to let go.
"no! stop. please. come here." luke spoke as he gripped onto my hand and brought me in for a hug.
"let me die luke please let me die. i don't want to do this anymore." i sobbed into his chest as i struggled to get away.
"no, you don't want to die." luke replied as he held me tightly.
luke held me for a couple minutes before letting me go.
"i took pills." i whispered.
"how many?" calum shot at me quickly as he ran to my side.
"only 10 ibuprofens." i muttered as i felt my head start to hurt.
"shit. come here princess." calum spoke as he picked me up and ran me to the car before everything went black.
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i woke up to a hospital room and mom and dad right next to the bed.
"h-hello." i muttered as i reached for water next to me.
dad woke up quickly and handed me the bottle.
"oh honey." he whispered as he gently touched my face.
dad pressed the nurses button and a nurse came walking in with luke not too far behind.
"w-wait. what's going on? why am i not dead? luke why didn't you let me die?" i spit out quickly as i looked around the room.
"calm down sav." luke instructed calmly as he sat down beside me.
"why didn't you let me fall! i wanted to die!" i yelled as i frantically grabbed the IV in my arm.
before i could pull it out, luke grabbed my hands and separated them in front of me.
"please, just stop for a second." luke tried again calmly.
"let go!" i yelled.
"savannah. calm down. luke keep her hands up while i explain to her what is going to happen." ashton spoke as he walked in.
"first off, im glad you are okay. secondly, i'm placing you into inpatient care here at the hospital until we can find the root problem of your attempt." ashton explained.
"i'm fine." i immediately spit out.
"your actions don't reflect your words. i don't know how long you will be in here, but we just want what's best for you." ashton spoke softly.
"okay." i replied blandly.
"if luke let's go of your hands, will you leave the IV alone?" ashton asked.
i nodded.
luke slowly let go of my hands and i set them down beside me.
"i guess i do need to try and get better." i mumbled.
"thank you." luke sighed as he leaned back.
maybe i could find a purpose in life?
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i sat in a chair at luke's wedding.
i was now out of the hospital and just continuing therapy on the side.
i was doing much better and cut colton completely out of my life.
luke married sierra, who i love as a sister in law.
they are a match made in heaven.
they are now expecting their first child on the way.
i am in my second year of college pursuing medicine to become a psychiatrist.
ashton couldn't be more proud.
although my life seemed hopeless, like i had no way out, i now found my purpose living in this world.
which is what i needed all this time.
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Hopeless//5sos✔️
Fanfiction"why can't you see that he's killing the person you used to be." "colton would never do that, maybe your the one who is."
