Do you ever rely on someone too much?
Have you ever said "forever"?
Do you ever put every inch of you into someone?
Have you ever felt so insecure that you self sabotage?
I do and I have.
When they leave because you're too much but you still don't give enough is something indescribable.
Something that you need to go through to understand,
but something you wouldn't wish on your worst enemy.
Something that you can feel in every inch of you to the point to where your emotions start to become physical.
The physical becomes too much you,
that it needs to be released.
So you cut and cut and cut.
Till it doesn't feel like you might explode.
Till you get caught and then it's all over
You wish the cutting would've done it,
that it would've killed you.
So you didn't have to be here right now.
Breathing, heart beating, blood traveling without you being the source of it..
Now everytime I think of you,
my breathing becomes rapid, my stomach turns upside down, my blood freezes, my heart wants to explode.
I just wish we could've been forever and ever.
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Forever & Over
PoetryI wrote most of these when I was in a really dark time in my life it felt like I was drowning and sinking but now I finally learned how to float and breathe again. When I look back at these mistakes and this undescribable pain, I like to still wri...
