Doctor Annabelle (GxG)

part 12

Staring at each other

Having deep conversations

Holding a crying Valentina on bad days

That's how the next 3 weeks went. We stared at each other a lot, she probably thought nothing of it but i was not watching her like i do with patients, well that was the other reason.

Another tiny part of me had inappropriate intentions. It liked watching her.

Deep conversations were of her opening up and I would help her through it and we would be so into her head that we would pass her hour to 3 hours. It was unhealthy for me.
Then sometimes she would be so down, she would come to my office just to fall apart in my arms, yes in my arms.

I could not bring myself to tell her no hugs when the girl clinged on me like she was trying to melt into me, but her sad face was heartbreaking, i let her get these hugs.

Today was the day her lawyer brought her the emancipation papers after 2 weeks of getting them ready. I might have helped with that but it was my job. Kind of,

Yeah right

It was. I have helped my patients with their personal needs before. So i did the same for Valentina because I care about my patients

She had made 2 more friends in the past weeks and a possible psychotic admirer. She told me he was creepy and relentless but she said i should not do anything about it because she is waiting for an opposition to kneed his balls.

I agreed but asked Marilyn to watch after her during group meetings.

My mind knows what's happening, I'm a psychiatrist so of course I know that I have feelings for Valentina. It's not even about her hot body but her mind. I like being in her mind and sorting it out for her. I like that she can cry and then laugh in the middle of crying if i crack a joke.

She can break down and not dwell on it. She just needs to let it out and she can be fine. I like that she thinks more about the moment than tomorrow which is the opposite of me. I like that she is brave enough to open up and try to fight her demons. I like that she wants more for herself unlike my other patients

They wanted to be always happy, one little incident and they think life is horrible they want to die. I understand them too doesn't mean i agree with their ways because it's life. It has so many downs

The trick about life is that you can twist the downs into a beautiful thing. You can take control the downs and make them into positive thing with a big smile on your face

It's tiring that's why sometimes you need to breakdown then get back up again. I learned this the hard way. I'm not saying I have life figured out but i have accepted its routine.

"Come in"

Her lawyer was a woman because Valentina said:

''There is something about female lawyers that makes me wet"

I thanked her for her honesty and she blushed like a tomato after realizing she said it out loud. And she was right, they were hot.

"Hello Dr Annabelle," Shay Green, Valentina's lawyer was standing front of me.

"Ms Green, take a seat" I gestured with my hand.

"How many times have I told you to call me by my name, Annabelle?" Ms Green scrunched up her face.

"I would like to keep things professional, we are not friends" i said sternly.

"Right, i will try to forget the things your mouth did to me back then" the lawyer said loudly just as Valentina knocked at the already open door