songs I wrote For Fun

I Miss You

We fight a lot
Our love, something that we forgot
As we cherished what we got
We always tied down the knot

We have our own house
A room for two spouse
Always and forever
They will always shoot
Each one their own endeavour
There's no mute

You said one day you wanted a happy life
But I couldn't be your happy wife
I only fuel your strife
As you use your words like knife

Started our daily lullaby at nine
We can't even dine
Without feeling a decline
Everything is fine

Even if I admit that I'm insecure
That every time I can't help but whine
I'm sorry that I couldn't be demure
You can't get it, it's my design

You don't know me like I do
It's all about my woe, it's not new

All I bring is drama on table
I should instead only make the food
Instead of putting you under a label
Criticising your way of life, I'm being rude

I feel like all I did was bring down the mood
I hit a nerve, I should have reviewed
All my words before I began to spewed
You put on your shoes, I should have been shrewd

I saw you leave by the door
I wish I could take it back before
I pushed you to the core
You couldn't take it anymore

So you run away, searching for peace
But next morning, I saw the police
They told me everything, you found peace
In the most heartbreaking way, you deceased

I lost my shit that day!
You could have stayed
But I pushed you far away
Now we're left to decay

I'll blame everything on you
The flame in me scraped the view
Come back, tell me that I was being cruel
Under my thumb, I'll tape you as a ghoul

But... never dare escape as you don't need such a fate
It's against my selfish gain, I'll lose my mind at this rate

I have never knew I could be so charming
For you to not see me as alarming
You should be stuck by my side
Why have you died ?

I know that we couldn't help but fight
That I felt like I had to prove to be right

I just saw it as our daily fun
An amusing way to let off some steam
I never meant to teared down my only one
Maybe I pushed it too much on the extreme

We have our own house
A room for one spouse
Never and ever
I will always shoot
For my own endeavour
Everything left on mute

There's no drama to start now
Goodbye to all our lullabies
I'm mad you couldn't keep your vow
I pray that all this get nullifies

I complained about a stupid thing
But in the end it took my everything
Now I'm left screaming at your ghost
At breakfast I'm always making your toast

In the morning, the sun is shining but I'm still making your bed
Reaching for a closure... were you in pain ? Ah I'm stuck in this stagnancy
Leeching on your voice, will you speak again ? But no you are dead
Mourning...maybe I should a wished that our love wouldn't fall to fugacity

This house was previously full of screams and yells
As I rest on our bed, my nose full of your fading smell
No sound in here, no voice to hear
Those past arguments, my only souvenir

Maybe one day when I will wake up
I will finally have the chance to make up
I don't care how much time it'll take up
I will always wait up

In the face of your portrait at the funeral
Reality hit me, this is not dream
Your final scream are real
Last dinner was your final meal

Even though you used to be as warm as a blanket
Now you are still and cold stuffed inside of your casket

How can you look so peaceful !?
When all I can do is shiver
Just thinking about our last dinner
I guess for you it must be gleeful...

I didn't make any effort
You only ended up getting hurt
I can't look away
This is the result of that day

I can't blame you as I treated you,
Like an alcoholic treats his liver
I just wish that you are alive but it would be untrue
This truth like liquor tastes very bitter

We don't have a house together anymore
You got buried under the dirt
While I'm crying, tripping , I can't ignore
That I'm your killer, I could have avert

You didn't deserve to be my karma
While I'm the one who started the drama
My vices caused your loss
I didn't even get my point across

I need you for everything
I love you like you are my everything
Now I miss you cause I lost my everything
I miss my everything