songs I wrote For Fun

Daddy's little girl

"Warning: This song contains themes of depression, suicide, and death. If you are experiencing any emotional distress or suicidal thoughts, please reach out to a trusted friend or mental health professional."

I love my daddy
And my mommy

We were such a happy family
We all laughed in harmony

Until mommy left
With a lot of baggage
It felt like we were victims of a theft
Daddy took a lot of damage

I wonder when it's going to end
Will I get a new mommy instead ?

But daddy hasn't left home
He's not moving like a stone

He didn't go to his job
He became a slob

He began seeing illusion
Now he's taking a prescription

I'm curious why so I try to ask
But it causes him to relapse

All the screams of agony
Doesn't sit well with our harmony

Daddy's face stays still
No sign of physical ill

His dull eyes draft around
He always close to the ground
I'll never understand since it's cold
Maybe daddy is just too old

I need to fix my family
So we can all be happy

I am daddy's little girl
My daddy is my world

I will do mommy's job
Since my daddy is a slob

I'm his precious little treasure
Pitching up his recovery, I'll catch the thieves
If I'm not mischievous, he'll find pleasure
Piling up clothes, why can't he wear shorter sleeves ?

I began to do the dishes
And the laundry
I hope it relieves his sickness
I even do his coffee

Though he's never hungry, the food lies in the freezer
Though he's never angry, his pale face grows bleaker

I will keep the kitchen spotless
I hope it won't be useless

But daddy won't look me in the eyes
What happened to his smile ?

Did I do something wrong ?
I tried to stay strong

Then I realised that he saw me as mommy
Is this why he is avoiding me ?

Why does he push me away ?
I just want his happiness
Why can't he give me the time of day ?
Daddy...why is there only emptiness ?

Does daddy not love mommy ?
What did mommy do ?
Should I also go ?
I hope he doesn't catch me

Today I saw mommy
And I got cocky

But she wasn't alone,
She was with a man in a car
Did daddy get dethrone ?
Everything is so bizarre

I escaped from the sight
And tried to reject the might
As I knew nothing was right
I have to guide them to the light

I am daddy's little girl
My daddy is my world

I had been a really good girl
But it doesn't seem to work
Daddy is still and always hurt
Maybe it's just not my perk

All my attempts end up in failure
All this is disappointing
I should change my behaviour

Oh, daddy is playing

He is tying a rope
And is standing on a chair
I questioned him but he didn't care
It seems he lost all hope

The only word from his mouth
A desperate sorry thought his teeth
Ah... everything went to south
The chair fell beneath

He's not even looking
He's not even moving

It looks like Clayton's defeat
It's not real, it doesn't feel concrete

Cause I am daddy's little girl
And my daddy is my world

All I have is daddy
Because there's no mommy

So I'll go everywhere
The most important thing is that he's there

But my daddy is left hanging
His body has stopped dangling

His eyes left open like a fish
In the inside, I felt a squish

Daddy has become inanimate
The realisation has come late

The air felt so strong now
As I am being compressed to the ground
I couldn't help but ask, how ?
But there's no response, only a wound

Clayton is a Tarzan villain, when she says defeat, she talks about his death.