songs I wrote For Fun

Loneliness, My only friend

My phone is full of contacts
That left me with no tact

I could see it coming
But still left me stumping

Have I done something wrong ?
Is it because I'm not strong ?
Did I knew them for long ?
Every answer is stuck at the tip of my tongue

Only loneliness stay at my side
Maybe they were never a time were it hadn't
Maybe me and loneliness are tied
Not once has happiness had me

The cold tiles of my room remind me,
That the cold isn't an enemy
That the sun isn't an ally
That the solution isn't suicide

Even if loneliness is a curse
Am I fated the get hurt ?
Nothing can make me happy, even deserts
I just hope that there is more to the world than jerks

But I'm stuck,
Life can suck

I tried to pray for one day
That I don't have to stay away

From all those social interactions
I hope their intentions,

Will be one of the purest kind
I want to cross the line

To be able to roll the dice
End up on something nice

But those shackles that keep me
From moving on

Are choking me
I am now cursed to be alone

Stuck here watching from the window
People are moving while I'm watching
I'm being force fed sorrow
My body is starving, it's hitching

My dying will inside of my home
Is filled with the echo of my footsteps
The only source of light is my phone
Nothing to do, I should have slept 

This anxiety has swallowed me
I am now a prisoner of my own body

But my hope hasn't fallen
My disappointment keeps growing
I don't want this to happen

But all my friends keep leaving

My back is full of stab wounds
I can't keep tabs of all those bounds
That's left me half living
And left me half dying

I don't want to be alone
But now all hope is gone

I waited for the right person
To come
The one saviour that will stop the pain
The one who will wipe the rain
The one who'll give me love, please just some

But time keeps passing
My chance's are falling

This anxiety !

is killing me

It eats from the inside
While I'm left in famine
Pleading for compassion
I can't beat the tide
It's not within my range
I'm too weak to change

My loneliness,
Is my only friend

I now understand that my happiness
Will never come no matter how much I bend