My Enemy?

Panic Attack

When the night arrived, I felt my nervous feels controlling me and i started to panic. I tried to do my breathing exercises but nothing helped.

"No, no"I groaned"this can't he happening now".

I was struggling with feelings of anxiety, my heart was pounding and I  felt like I was going to be sick. I was not expecting to feel so nervous, but the thought of a night with Nathan was making her feel so overwhelmed. I tried to control my anxiety by doing some breathing exercises, but it didn't seem to help. I was getting frustrated with myself, I just wanted to stay calm and have a peaceful night. I took a deep breath and tried to clear my mind. I wanted to calm down, just take things slowly and slowly...

A knock sounded on the door but I couldn't hear or see past my anxiety.

The door was already unlocked

I was still trying to relax myself, and hearing the knock on my door took me by surprise. It was enough to send me over the edge and I immediately felt my heart pounding even faster.

I heard Nathan walking in and I knew that he was already there, but my anxiety was preventing me from seeing or paying attention to him. I was completely unaware that he had entered the room and I  couldn't focus on anything but my heart pounding out of control.

He noticed that she was not her usual self and he knew the symptoms of panic attacks because his mom had them in the past .

He walked over to her and held her in his arms "hey love" He said.

I was completely caught off guard when I felt his arms wrapping around me. My anxiety slowly started to fade away as I felt Nathan's warmth around me, I completely let go of my worries for this moment. I placed my head on Nathan's chest, I wanted to feel safe and comfortable with Nathan.

I didn't want to think about anything else, I just wanted to enjoy this moment. I was finally at peace with my anxiety and I was at ease. I was with the person I trusted the most, and that was Nathan.

"It's okay ,shhh ,calm down ,take deep breathes " he said calmly.

I took deep breaths like Nathan told me to, after a while, I started to feel completely relieved. My heart wasn't beating as quickly anymore and my brain was clearing up. His soothing voice was helping a lot, and I felt so grateful to have him at my side.

I turned my face and looked up at him, a smile formed on my face as I felt safe and loved. I wanted to stay like this for a long time, I didn't want this moment to end.

T"hank you and I'm sorry " I said. "How did you know how to deal with panic attacks".

I was feeling much better now, I wasn't panicking anymore. I remembered that Childe had talked to me about his mother having panic attacks in the past, so it was not difficult for him to recognize the symptoms. But I still wanted to understand how he knew exactly what to do in this situation.

"How did you know how to deal with panic attacks?" I asked, I still had some worries left in my mind. But I was slowly able to relax and I didn't want to worry at all. I was just enjoying the moment with Nathan , and i felt greatful.

"I used to find my mother having panic attacks so I had to learn how to help" he said.

I was relieved to know that Nathan  had prior experience in dealing with panic attacks, and most importantly it was his mother that was struggling with it. His gentle and caring attitude towards me was not surprising at all, knowing how he handled his mother's condition in the past. I knew that I could count on Nathan for anything, he was a kind and considerate person.