Diary of a Torpe kid

Fear of rejection

One day Ms.C asked me who my crush was and I kept it secrect from her for a while until I have the guts to say it to her.
Meanwhile I consulted Zarena for help she said that I should be careful or I might be dropped instantly to the deadzone.
After that I still tried to buy some time for me to have the courage to do it. Ms. C asked me for the hundredth time who was my crush then I said "I will say it to you but give me time because it will come with an explanation" "ok" she answered back. Finally, I had the guts to say it. It went like this "My crush is YOU, yes you are not mistaken it's YOU and I won't compete with Paul just to make you like me back because I have many liabilities. 1. I am coward when it comes to this type of situation and 2. I am a nerd. So this may seem awkward because I have a crush on someone and it's the first week of school but I mark my words I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU! So if you have any reactions say it now because I have been through many rejections.😢" then she sent a couple of messages and she asked me why wasn't I answering back. I just said that I was on my Silent mode.