All these years

Stupid birthdays

We used to celebrate our birthday even tho they worked late ,they never forget then it all came to a stop out of nowhere they would even forget their own child birthday .
When they started forgetting ,we thought it was just stress but as time when on they forgot so that they wouldn't have to celebrate it for them it was extra expenses , because how would you forget your own child's birthday the day you have birthed to them.it was truly a shame because they started favoritism among we the children I was left alone I was nobody's favorite.
My parents forgot about my birthday on many occasions it was somebody that reminded him and gave him a gift to give me .I have already cried out my eye that morning that nobody even my siblings didn't remember except from my sister she was the only one that sang happy birthday to me ,what they failed to understand is that even if we are low are cash the littlest thing you can give me I will always appreciate ,because I know you tried your best but the aspect where by you forgot totally and even still punished me on my birthday is another thing entirely ,so I always made sure to remind them a week before my birthday but even tho they would still forget.
The only time I have celebrated my birthday was when I turned thirteen and it was my uncle that celebrated it for me I was so happy because he remembered my birthday and my parents forgot I know it was my sister that reminded them of it.
It's such a shame that you decided to bring me into this world but you don't even know me ,you don't what I have become or turned into you ,don't know how I have coped ,and manage my feeling ,because if I open up they would say I am overreacting .
So birthdays never really freak me much because my birthday seem like the worst time of the year for me ,I don't want to celebrate it if it's always going to be like that .My mum would never  forget when it was my brothers birthday .my mum was awake until midnight to wish them happy birthday but on the day of my birthday they didn't even sing for me the only I requested for they didn't even give instead they threatened me "if you don't keep quiet I won't celebrate your birthday again" my mum said ,I had no choice than to wait until I got home to cry my eye out ,what I requested for was not even that expensive it was very cheap and guess what after everything the didn't celebrate it and they thought they did ,but they not so I decided not to bother my self anymore by reminding them if it's going to bring me pain.
One certain time that was last year my phone got spoilt so I asked them for a new one, I was expecting it as my birthday gift I was really hallucinating to think they would fulfill my wish ,instead they made me cry and the people around me made it worst they called the next morning and sang but I didn't even reply them they made promises upon promises but I knew better than to believe them .I went without a phone for five months until my dads friends got a new one for me ,if not I don't know if I would have gotten a new phone they sent very little amount for me to buy a phone and it was really shocking because they had the money I don't know if they just being stingy ?sometimes I just sit and cry ,why do I always cry ? I have asked myself server times I want to strong  and not show weakness .

It has began😌
Xoxo💕🤲🏻