The Black The white and the grey.

Chapter 34 | Exceptions.

Kaboentle.

I look at Siya with nothing but fear and anxiety in my eyes.
I should be happy that our baby is alive I should be bumping of the walls here but my heart is still just so so heavy.
I know what I saw, I knew it from the moment I saw my clothes.

"I don't get it."
Siya responds as he stares down at the doctor as he continues to gently rub my hand with his thumb, just like he would do all those times that I've been anxious around him, just like he's done since our wedding day.

It's crazy how far we've come since that day. What's even more crazier is this very moment.

"Our guess is, vanishing twin syndrome."
Dr Khoza starts.

"Twins ?"
I ask and he nods his head.

"It's a very rare case. We've never had one like it before. We would usually have cases of still birth and normal cases of miscarriage but never this one. Vanishing twin syndrome, as the name depicts, is a condition in which one of a set of twins or multiple embryos dies in utero, disappear, or gets resorbed partially or entirely, with an outcome of a spontaneous reduction of a multi-fetus pregnancy to a singleton pregnancy, portraying the image of a vanishing twin."
He explains and I sigh as I lay my head against the pillow.

"What is the cause for all this ?"
Siya asks.
"There is a highly likely possibility that the "vanished" twins irregular DNA prevented it from fully developing hence the passing of the fetus."

"So will this affect the remaining twin ?"
He asks yet again.

At this point I've  let him do all the talking.

"Not at all, the surviving twin is likely to survive without any consequences and hopefully mommy will have a safe and healthy birth. Now if this was during her mid term gestation she would face the risk of preterm birth, pre-eclampsia and so forth, but as it stands both the baby and the mother are both in good health."

"So how do we go about this from here ?"

"We let the rest of the tissues pass and we monitor you closely to see if you don't develop any compilations, I will not however put you on any medication except a prescription for vitamins just so your hormone stay a little stable."
He explains again and I nod my head at him.

"We're really sorry for your loss Mr and Mrs Gumede."

He says and we both just nod our heads at them before they excuse themselves.
Siya sits beside me on the bed and he squeezes my hands again.

"This is all my fault Siya. I should have known. I should have felt it."

"This isnt your fault."

"I've had cramps for the past week, I should have taken that as a sighn."

"Docter Nene assured us that this was an early pregnancy symptom."

"And an early miscarriage symptom."

"You wouldn't have known."

"Why does it hurt so much. I should be happy that we still have this baby but knowing that this one is gone .... I just feel so guilty."

"I feel guilty the most if I had taken initiative earlier we would have known about the babies and maby been able to catch this in time."

"Don't blame yourself too."

"I was supposed to protect you all but I failed at that."

"Siya, don't beat yourself up about this."

"And don't either, it's not helping."

"I know it's not."

"But it still just hurts so much."