Forbidden | Shedeur Sanders

06

Shedeur
I'd aced all my midterms and I felt like words just weren't to thank Eden this time, so I'd went and picked up some roses, having them sent to her house. She texted me a thank you but didn't address it when we saw one another in person. She seemed to be working really hard to minimize the sexual tension between us, but it wasn't working, if anything she was only making it worse.

I'd gone to the park a few extra times since I last went to her house, hoping to catch her there, but I didn't have any luck. I was thinking about her almost all day every day, so I was grateful Karim and Drew wanted to throw a Halloween party. I needed something, or somebody else to think about, even if it was just for one night.

I sat in my bed, only mildly feeling the effects of the shots I had taken. I watched in silence as Carmen started to slowly remove her playboy bunny costume. She crawled over to me, and my mind immediately started to think about Eden, wishing she was the one here instead of Carmen. Before she could connect our lips, I slid her off of me, and grabbed my keys heading for the door.

"Aye man where you going?" Karim asked as I exited the apartment, but I was on a mission. I drove over to Eden's house, ringing the doorbell a few times. I could hear her complaining from the other side of the door, probably expecting it to be some kids waiting for her.

She opened the door and stood in shock "Shedeur...what are you—" she started, "Trick or treat." I said, not giving her time to respond before I leaned down connecting our lips.

She immediately started to kiss back, and I walked us into the house, kicking the door closed with my foot. My hands found their way onto her butt making her moan into the kiss but pull away abruptly.

"Wait, wait. This isn't right Shedeur, we can't do this."

I ignored her, simply tilting her chin back up so she could look at me. "You all I been thinking about for months now. You been thinking about me baby? Hm?" I said, now talking directly into her ear. She nodded slightly, her breathing starting to become shaky.

"Let me have you." I whispered, and that seemed to be all she needed to hear as she reconnected our lips. The kiss got sloppy as I picked her up and carried her into her bedroom. We stripped each other down to nothing, and I was mesmerized. She looked 10x better than I could've ever imagined, and it just made me lust for her more.

As the night progressed I took the time to appreciate every aspect of the moment, wanting to truly fulfill all of my fantasies. Never wanting to forget the way her moans sound, or the face she makes when she's cumming, or the way her hands feel on my body. I was living out my dreams, and I never wanted to wake up.

Eden
I opened my eyes to the sun shining through my curtains, feeling the soreness starting to kick in from the night before. I glanced over seeing Shedeur still soundly sleeping. I couldn't believe what I'd done. Did I regret it? A little bit, we both had a lot to lose, and I didn't want to jeopardize either of our futures. But at the same time, that was the best sex of my life. It could've been because of all the built-up tension between us, but it also could've been Shedeur was just that great.

I sighed, not wanting to think about it anymore, at least not right now. "Shedeur, get up." I said shaking him slightly. He stirred in his sleep a little before opening his eyes and looking at me.

"Wassup?" he asked, sitting up and stretching. I got up, throwing on my robe and handed him his clothes from off the floor. "You should go."

"I can't get no breakfast or nothing?" he said joking in response, "I'm serious Shedeur. This never should have happened, and it can never happen again. I'll continue to help you with your work as needed, but that's as far as we go. Okay?"

"No." he said, his response catching me off guard. I stood there not at a loss for words for a while before finally questioning him "What do you mean no?"

"Exactly what I said Eden. Obviously we got the physical attraction thing going on, but we got a lot of chemistry together, and I want to explore it. What you scared of?" he questioned, starting to slip his clothes back on.

"Shedeur, I'm your teacher and I'm like 7 years older than you. We cannot be together." I said, in disbelief at what he was saying.

"Says who? Ion really care about that age difference, we both grown last time I checked. Other than that I see what you saying about the teacher thing, we both got a lot to lose though, so it can be a secret for a little while. It's not like I'm using you or nothing, so why you not tryna give me a chance?" he said now standing directly in front of me.

I sighed, trying not to allow the effect he had on me to win. "Please just leave Shedeur."

"Alright, but I want my answer later." He leaned down placing a kiss on my forehead, before exiting my bedroom and then the front door.

I was just going to go have a girls day with my friends and try to not think about him the entire time. I met up with Harlem & Dayna, my two closest friends, and I should've known they'd see right through me. They waited until we were seated at the restaurant to bring anything up though.

"Alright Eden, you been quiet, what's wrong?" Dayna asked concerned, "I'm sorry y'all I just got a lot on my mind."

"What happened?" Harlem asked, "Do we need to go fight somebody?" she continued making me laugh a little.

"No. I just—I slept with somebody that I shouldn't have, but I really do like him so I'm a little stuck." I explained being as unspecific as possible.

"Oh he must be married or something." Dayna asked and I shot her a look, "No he's not, he just isn't the person y'all would expect me to be with."

"Well if the dick was good and you like him it don't matter what nobody else think. You got to put yourself first, you deserve to be happy Eden. Now stop stressing and let's eat." Harlem said as the waiter was approaching with our food.

I let her words linger a little. I did deserve to be happy, but I was scared to put my heart on the line and my happiness with Shedeur proved to be fleeting. Maybe I just needed some time away from him to figure out what I wanted.