Pain Of Love (Y/N x Tom Kaulitz)

Lily. (9)

(DISCLAIMER: Lily's character is not based on me, Lily is only a nickname I use online. Y/N was born in 2005 in this story, and Tom + Bill Kaulitz were born in 2004. The previous chapters were written in 2023, I have edited the 'Important' chapter.)

2014, January 17th. 4:47PM
1st Person POV

The 9 and 8 year olds played joyfully.

"Look Lily, i'm a dragon!"
Y/N chased Lily around pretending to be a dragon, Lily ran away giggling in their game of pretend. In the process, Y/N accidentally knocked over a vase, the water leaked on the floor and the sisters gasped in fear of their mother.

"WHAT WAS THAT?"
They heard their mother yell, both the girls ran into Lily's room scared. Their mother barged in,

"Y/N, WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY VASE?"
She yelled angrily, those were her favourite flowers, freshly picked from the garden. But the 9 year old was confused, why did her mother think it was Y/N and not even looking at Lily?

"I'm sorry mommy, it was an accident! Me and Lily were playing..."
Y/N explains, trying not to cry in fear.

"Don't bring Lily into this! It was you, go pick me more flowers right now and clean the glass!"
Her mother lectured Y/N as she cleaned the glass, she finally leaves her room to go watch TV. As she's picking up the glass with her bare hands, a piece cuts her deep. She winces in pain, but if she didn't continue cleaning, their mother would be angry.

Lily peeks out of her room and runs to the garden, picking a new red rose for their mom. Lily hands the rose to Y/N before telling her,

"Don't tell mom I helped you, she told me not to."
Y/N took the rose out of Lily's hands and hugs her.

"Lily, promise me you'll always be with me no matter what?"
She holds out her pinky for Lily, and she smiles. Locking her pinky with hers.

"Always, best friends forever!"
Lily says a bit too loud, running back to her room incase her mother came in.

2015, May 10th 9:04AM
1st Person POV

The innocent girls were lying on the floor in Y/N's room early in the morning. Making paintings for their mom, it was mother's day.

"I'm so excited to give this to mom!"
Lily giggles and continues painting a stick figure with long black hair and a small girl next to her in pigtails, looking like a replica of her mother.

In the process of trying to put the paint brush back in a small cup of rainbow, paint infested water, Lily accidentally knocks it over on the carpet.

"What do we do?"
Y/N says, worried. She quickly runs to the kitchen, she grabs some paper towels off the counter but to her luck, her mom woke up.

"Y/N? Why are you grabbing them?"
Y/N goes silent,

"What did you do?"
Her mother says in a stern voice, then follows Y/N back to the room seeing the big paint water stain on the floor.

"Y/N! How the hell am I supposed to get that out of the carpet?"
Her mother lectures, but Y/N was confused why she was getting told me.

"Mom it wasn't me! Lily spilt i-"
She was cut off by her mom's yelling,

"Don't bring Lily down for your mistake, clean it right now and i'm going to have to scrub the hell out of that carpet later. Ugh, Y/N!"
Their mother leaves the room and the 10 year old begins crying, throwing her mother's day painting in the bin.

"Wh-y does s-she always get mad at m-me?"
10 year old Y/N muttered between sobs. Lily tried to hug her but Y/N pushed her off in anger.

"Go away! Mom likes you more than me anyway."
Y/N sadly says, Lily feels horrible and doesn't understand why her mother favours her. Better grades possibly, better behaviour, she wasn't sure. The girls both loved their mom, and their mom loved them back but for an unknown reason to Y/N, her sister was favoured over her.

2021, February 24th. 11:30PM
Y/N POV:

"Lily... again?"
I say to her, as I walked into her room at midnight seeing her fully dressed to sneak out with her secret boyfriend.

"Relax, we're only going to hang out again at his friend's place. I'm not that type of girl to do anything like that before marriage. The most we've done is kiss."
She tries to assure me, this is the 3rd night this week. I worry for her intensely but it's not like I can snitch. Lily would probably get kicked out, or forced to move back to grandmas.

"Take this, Okay? And message me when you're there and when you're coming back. No later than 2am."
I tell her in all seriousness, before handing her a small pocket knife to put in her bag. She hugs me before leaving to jump the fence from our backyard.

I lay on my bed, I have a bad feeling. Somethings not right, and how is she going to get there? The past nights she's been taking buses but what bus is up and running at 12am?

I try to ignore all these thoughts, she always does this. It'll be fine. I'm only 16, if I had a car and a license i'd drive her where she wants. It shocks me how girls as young as 15 are doing these type of things, i'm older than her and I would never even think of leaving the house in the middle of the night. To go party, hang out, whatever she's doing, i'll never do those kind of things.

"Y/N, Y/N!"
I jolt up from my sleep and see my mom, sobbing at my door. With my Dad right beside her, crying silently.

"LILY! SHE GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT!"
My heart dropped, my mom sobbed and sobbed, no... no this can't be true.

"No, no you're lying..."
My mom dragged me out of the bed,

"Put on a jacket, we need to go to the hospital NOW!"
My mom cried out and rushed to the car, I quickly grabbed the nearest jacket and my phone, I put my hair into a messy ponytail and jumped into the backseat.
I watch the rain drops race down my window, this can't be. I knew it, I fucking knew I had a bad feeling last night! I can't believe I didn't try to stop her, I can't believe my sister might die because of me, because of a stupid fucking guy!

Tears silently roll down my cheek and I immediately pulled out my phone, not like this would be any use but I open her chats about to text her, but I noticed a few unopened texts from her.

1:22AM
Lily❤️: Y/N my boyfriend just picked me up in his parents car i'm worried
Lily❤️: Y/N i'm scared, he's racing people on the road
1:48AM
Lily❤️: I love you Y/N.

I begin to sob reading these messages, I can't believe it. This isn't reality, this is some sick and twisted dream. No way, no absolute way i'm losing my sister. I'm not letting her die on me because of a stupid fucking guy.

The Hospital

I jump out of the backseat, immediately after my parents.
I ran to the front desk, my mom following after me but she couldn't speak from her crying. Dad tried to explain and they led us to her hospital room.
Before they revealed the curtains, the doctor tried to explain the situation.

"Lily has extremely severe injuries. We had gotten a short description of what happened from her boyfriend, who had luckily not as many injuries and not as big of an impact as Lily. She had snuck out that night, her sister knew about this-"
Before the doctor finished his sentence, my mother instantly shot me a look, I was going to be fucked up when I get home.

"The boyfriend, Matthew Arianson, had stolen his parent's car. They were driving back to his house after picking Lily up from a park but Matthew began speeding and racing other people on the road. Resulting into the crash."
My mother immediately lunged herself at me as the doctor finished explaining. All I could do was stand there and cry. If I stopped her, that one night, she wouldn't be in this situation.

"YOU MONSTER! THIS IS YOUR FAULT!"
My mother screamed at me as my dad held her back.

"Mom... I didn't know this would happen, i'm so sorry."
I looked down at the ground, I couldn't look at her in the eyes. The doctor opened the curtains and my heart sunk to my stomach.

2021, February 24th, the day my heart officially stopped beating. I saw her lifelessly lying on the bed. Scars all over her, bandaids and casts trying to fix it.

"My baby, my beautiful baby..."
My mom hugs her unconscious body, frantically crying. I just stood there, is this real? This couldn't really be happening, losing my best friend, my partner in crime, my beautiful sister.

Then suddenly, we hear the heart monitor go blank. She was really gone.