Pain Of Love (Y/N x Tom Kaulitz)

Finale. (36)

A/N
Hey guys, I am so sorry it's been so long since I updated this story, I left you all hanging 😭. But the truth is, I literally had no motivation to write. I sort of wish I could rewrite this whole thing, I believe i've become a better writer since making this. Also since i've been reading more books recently, I wish I had the motivation to make this story better and continue it. I'm truly sorry, I just reread the whole story and I feel like I owe it to you all, my loyal readers, to write the last chapter. Most of you probably forgot about this story, but for the ones still waiting, i'm truly thankful for you all and thank you for the support 💕.

Y/N POV:

The words that came out of his mouth... I was already on the edge. That was the final straw to push me over, I looked down at him, he nervously sat up as he looked at me.

"Please.. please tell me you're lying."
I uttered out in disbelief, but the look on his face was genuine confusion, he let go of my hand.

"I'm sorry, are you someone important...? Why am I here?"
He looked around the hospital room and I heard a nurse come into the room, her eyes widened and she had a small smile on her face.

"Tom, you're awake!"
She smiled before calling in a few other doctors to run some tests, I was ushered out of the room. I sat on the cold, plastic chair in the waiting room with disbelief. A million thoughts going through my head. The doctors didn't say this could happen! Before I knew it, I felt warm tears began to roll down my cheeks and I made no effort to stop them, I lifted my legs up, resting my chin on my knees as I softly cried to myself. There's no way he could have forgotten me, right? This has to be a mistake.

A few long, torturing minutes passed before a nurse came over to me. I quickly wiped my pathetic tears with my sleeve, looking up at her with a glimmer of hope.

"Visitor for Tom Kaulitz, yes?"
She asked with a soft voice, I saw the pity in her eyes and I braced myself for what was about to be revealed to me. I nodded, and her pretty pink lips parted to tell me something that I knew would be a stab to my heart.

"I'm sorry to tell you this. Unfortunately, he's suffered some memory loss. He remembers basic knowledge, like family and childhood, and who he was. But he was very confused when we told him he was currently in LA, and we explained how he overdosed. We have been told it had to have been a drunken mistake."

I nodded, I didn't trust myself to speak, neither was I even sure I could without completely breaking down in front of this innocent nurse. She took me back into the room, letting me see him again. I walked into the cold, white place, seeing him looking nervous and confused. I sighed, walking over to him.

"Tom... I-I was your girlfriend.."
I whispered with pain in my voice, he looked at me with wide eyes.

"I really am sorry, I can't say I remember..."
He said, sounding a bit harsher than I think he intended to. I left the room in defeat, calling Aleyna.

"He woke up."
I spoke coldly, staring down at the cold hospital tiles. Her voice full of joy compared to mine, full of sorrow.

"Really? That's great! Me and Bill are coming right now!"
She said, excited. I swallowed hard before having to tell them the hard truth.

"He has memory loss, he doesn't remember me."
My voice cracked, barely above a whisper I spoke. The line went silent for a moment, before she uttered out,

"Y/N, I-I'm so sorry.. oh god,"
She said, the once joyful voice gone flat. She assured me it would be fine before hanging up, but how could I believe her? This boy, that I love with my whole heart, doesn't even know who I am. And because of me, because I told him to leave me alone that night, and he made stupid fucking decisions. I was so hurt but also angry, because how could he do that to himself? I don't know what he was thinking, swallowing all those pills. Whether it really was a suicide attempt, or he just wanted to be knocked out for a while, but I can't stop the voice in my head, screaming at me that it was my fault. Now, there are bigger issues.