Pain Of Love (Y/N x Tom Kaulitz)

Please talk to me. (17)

Y/N POV:

He grabs my hand and kisses it with his disgusting lips that's probably been with a million other girls.

"I expect to be unblocked when you get home, okay my beautiful?"
He said, I feel as if I was about to vomit everywhere. I nod silently and walk off, running into drunk Aleyna dancing around.

"Let's go."
I tell her coldly.

"Y/N nooooooooooooooo..!"
She made her 2 word sentence feel much longer than it was. But I didn't care for what she had to say, I grabbed her wrist and took her out of that place. This cursed club. I sat her in the backseat with a vomit bag and she ranted about something random that I wasn't paying attention to as I drove.

11pm
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I stared at the button in my bed. 'Unblock Nick Khahanin' I didn't want to press it, I wanted to run away somewhere and just cry. Although, I didn't really have a choice now, did I?
I pressed the button, giving away all the empty promises I made to myself that i'd never get back with him.

He messaged me almost immediately.

Nick: My gorgeous, you listen well.
Y/N: thanks.

I responded as dryly as I could, I needed him to know that I did not want this and I wasn't going to play his little game of giving him fake love.

I put my phone on my bedside table, I listened to it buzz but I didn't want to open to messages. I didn't want to talk to him, I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, trying to forget about it all.

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"Ughhh, what happened last night?"
Aleyna woke me up, collapsing beside me on my bed.

"You drank so much."
I said and giggled. I heard my phone buzz but Aleyna grabbed it first. Wait Ni-

"Y/N. Why the fuck is Nick texting you?"
She said harshly, I froze. I wasn't planning on telling her.

"Aleyna, uh, last night. We started talking... again."
I awkwardly told her, she looked like she was about to slap me.

"Y/N, don't you remember all the stupid things he did to you? What about Tom? Why are you with him again, what the fuck?!"
She yelled, she knew how manipulative he could be.

"Ley, I don't know. Maybe he's different this time."
I said as an excuse. I knew if I told her the real reason, she would definitely make me break up with him somehow, she doesn't know him like I do. I've seen him go through with his words, i've seen him do things like that to people he used to call his friends.

"Y/N! You can't do this, do you seriously not remember everything that happened?"
She frustratedly said, I wasn't sure if she was going to pull her hair out or mine.

"Aleyna, I know what i'm doing. It'll be okay, don't even worry about it. Go take a nap or something, you're hung over."
I scoot her out of my room and shut the door. Laying blankly on my bed, checking my phone to see what he said.

11:38PM
Nick: Can't wait to see you again
Nick: you're so beautiful
Nick: hello?
Nick: answer y/n.

11:58am
Nick: goodmorning
Nick: Can you fucking answer ?!

I sighed, remembering how obsessive he could be.

Y/N: I'm sorry, i was sleeping.
Nick: don't fucking do that, take your phone off silent.
Y/N: ok sorry

I felt powerless, this feeling was familiar. The feeling of someone having complete control over everything I did. Nonetheless, I took my phone off silent because I know what would happen if I didn't.

Nick: i wanna see you again
Nick: you should come to my place
Y/N: i'm busy, i can't
Nick: no you're not. come over
Y/N: I have things to do Nick, I can't
Nick: Y/N. You're coming over. 1PM.

I threw my phone somewhere on my bed in anger.  I fucking hate this.

2 weeks later.
Aleyna POV

"Bill, i'm so scared. Everyday she's been going out and coming home with bruises, she thinks I don't notice, she thinks I can't tell when she's trying to hide her body more. She hasn't been herself, i'm so fucking scared Bill, she won't listen to me!"
I rant to Bill, sitting on my cold couch with him.

"Aleyna, it's gonna be okay. Please don't cry my love. I get how you feel, Tom hasn't been himself either. He misses her so bad."
He tries to comfort me, but I can't help the tears streaming down my cheeks.

"Something is going on, I know her Bill! She wouldn't willingly get back with him. He did something but she won't lea-"
My sentence was interrupted by the door knob rattling. Y/N walks in the house, dressed in a scarf with baggy sweatpants and a big sweater. I notice her trying to move her hair on the side of her face, covering whatever is there.

"Oh, sorry guys."
She muttered before quickly running upstairs, before I even got to talk to her.

I cried in Bill's arms, he hugs me tighter. He grabs the TV remote, turning the volume up higher so Y/N couldn't hear our conversation.

"Have you tried asking her about the bruises?"
He asked me,

"I haven't even gotten the chance to, she's never home!"
I yell out in frustration, then lowering my voice so Y/N wouldn't hear.

"I have to go now my love, okay? I'm picking up food for the guys, please try talk to her. I love you."
He kisses my head before leaving, I take a deep breath and walk upstairs. I enter her room and see her quickly cover herself with the covers whilst she's in her pyjamas.

"Y/N, i'm not stupid. Why have you been so distant lately? And you think I haven't noticed you coming home with all those bruises?"
Her eyes go wide as I mention the bruises, she covers herself even more with the covers.

"Aleyna, nothing is going on. I'm fine, leave me alone."
She said, not even looking at me. Because apparently there's something so interesting about her ceiling. I climb over towards her and sit beside her on her bed.

"Y/N, please talk to me. I love you so much, you're my best friend. What's happening?"
I say to her, my eyes begin to water.

"Aleyna... nothing is happening. Don't cry please."
She hugged me, I hugged her back, tightly. I just missed her.

"Goodnight, Y/N."
I leave the room and sigh, that was no help whatsoever. Why won't she just tell me, doesn't she trust me?

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I lay in my bed, trying to sleep but I can't stop overthinking. Doesn't she trust me, we're best friends. I've known her since primary school, wouldn't she trust me?

I felt my phone buzz, it's no help for me trying to sleep but I check it anyway.

Bill 💗: Did you find out anything?
Aleyna: She won't tell me Bill, I don't know what to do.
Bill 💗: We'll figure something out my pretty girl, goodnight ❤️
Aleyna: goodnight ❤️

I put my phone back on my bedside table, actually trying to sleep this time.

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