My Journey Through Self Love

Chapter 3 - I Am Enough

I have to remember that I am enough.

Most of my feelings of self-hatred arose from me not reaching (or even believing I'll never reach) the standards that my family has set for me, and feeling like I had to be this perfect person who has everything together all the time to be loved and accepted.

But I am enough, even if I'm not perfect and even if I fail.

I may get external chatter from other people about my flaws and how I'm "supposed" to be, but I can't let their opinions define who I am.

In order for me to heal, I have to love myself regardless and I have to show up and be there for myself through my hurt feelings and my failures, even if no one else is around.

At the end of the day, I can't change my failures and I'm not gonna be perfect. There is a possibility that I'm not going to be a good friend and that I'm not going to reach my goals as fast as I'd hoped. I'm going to disappoint others and even myself from time to time. But I also have to remember that I'm only human. I'm not going to be perfect. I'm going to have negative emotions and be clueless about life from time to time. I'm going to have some flaws, and some of them are going to be things I can't change. But I need to embrace the flaws that are inherently a part of me. I have to be aware of my thoughts and feelings instead of becoming my thoughts and feelings. I can always learn from my mistakes and improve my weaknesses. I can always bounce back from my failures. And I may not be where I want to be right now, but that doesn't mean I will never be able to get there. I just need to be more patient with myself and with my life.

I will try my best to continue to be self-aware and catch myself when I have a fear, an insecurity, or a negative thought running through my head. I will also try my best to allow myself to feel my emotions, and address it with love.