Heartless Love (GXG) (StudentxProfessor)

Chapter 10

"We need to talk"
Alix immediately feels a pit growing in her stomach. Four words, that when mixed together causes Alix more anxiety than almost anything. Sighing softly she pulls back and looks down at her hands, her mind wondering back. She can hear Becca talking, but it sounds incoherent and muffled, as thought and memories fill her mind.

Flashback
Alix sips some tea while studying, wondering if maybe, just maybe she should be drinking something stronger right now. She can't explain it, but she has a gut feeling that something isn't right. Shay says it's just nerves, knowing how Alix gets before finals. Maybe Shay was right, after all, 15 finals in 5 days is enough to make anyone feel sick to their stomach. Scrolling through the last couple slides and jotting down notes, Alix hears her phone ding.
Looking down, she smiles when she sees a notification, "Becca ❤️". Sitting her pen down, Alix picks up her phone and opens the text, 'Alix, can we talk?'
"Ooooooh, lover girl wants to talk. You didn't fail her exam did you?!" Shay says as she reads over Alix's shoulder.
"How could I fail the exam, when I haven't taken it yet?"
Shay shrugs and sits on Alix's bed, "I thought you scheduled a couple exams early?"
"I wish. I asked to take some earlier, as in earlier in the day"
"Alix, you are fucking weird. Who doesn't wan't a couple hours between exams to cram study?"
Alix sighs and sits back in her chair, crossing her legs, "Someone who knows that cram studying actually makes you forget things that you've learned".
Shay perks up and looks at Alix's phone when it dings, another message from Becca.
"Wasn't she over last night? Why didn't she just talk with you then?"
Alix goes to answer when Shay interrupts her.
"Oh that's right! You two don't do a lot of 'talking' when she's here"
Shay smirks and chuckles when Alix tosses a pillow at her
"Shut up", Alix says with a slightly amused tone.
"You'd think having a girlfriend as a professor would help".
"If anything, she grades me harder. Remember that time she took 5 points off ?"
"Yeah, but then she came over that night and I explicitly remember her 'teaching' you a thing or two".
Alix blushes and rolls her eyes, looking down when her phone dings again. Huh, it wasn't like Becca to blow up her phone when she knew she was studying. Shay gets up and heads for the door, partially hiding behind it.
"Although last nights lesson, she was particularly focused on making you scream her name. Maybe you should answer her"
"Shay!"
She runs out of the room dodging another pillow Alix had throw her way. Shaking her head, Alix picks up her phone and calls Becca, knowing it'll be easier than texting her. After a couple rings, she picks up.
"Hey Alix"
'Hey Alix', Becca never answered the phone like this. It was usually 'Hey baby' or "hi sunshine'. She gets up and makes her way downstairs, heading to the kitchen.
"Hi, I got your messages. What's up?"
"Can we talk?"
"Sure", pouring herself a glass of wine, "What's up? If this is about the exam, I already got it bumped to an earlier time, so we don't-"
"It's not about that", Becca interrupts her.
"Okay...."
After a few moments of silence, Alix sits her glass down and leans against the counter.
"Becca, what's wrong?"
"Can you just..." she lets out a soft sigh, "open the door and let me in?"
"Let you in?" Alix asked confused. Why would she need to let her in? Becca has a set of keys to her place. "Um sure. What happened to your keys?"
She walks over and opens the front door, revealing a sad and nervous Becca. Alix hangs up the call and motions for her to come in. Becca stands there awkwardly and looks down at her feet, playing with her keys. Alix shuts the door and starts to walk to the kitchen.
"Want a glass of wine? I just opened a new bottle"
"Um, sure"
Alix grabs another glass, and listens as Becca slowly makes her way to the kitchen. Pouring the wine then handing it to the woman standing on the other side of the island. Watching as she shifts nervously and swirls the wine in the glass, Alix takes also sip of her wine.
"Becca"
She looks up at Alix almost startled and hums.
"What's going on?
Alix watches as the woman across from her lets out a sigh, and puts her hands on the counter. Watching as she stretches her fingers a couple times, a tale sign that Becca is nervous. Sitting her glass down, she walks over and stands next to her, placing a soft kiss on her shoulder and rubbing her back.
"Baby, whats wrong?" Alix asks softly. Watching as Becca's jaw clenches and she squeezes her eyes shut. Barely above a whisper Becca says, "We can't Alix".
Confused, Alix waits for Becca to explain. When she doesn't, Alix reaches up and gently cups her cheek, turning her so they are facing each other.
Asking softly, "We can't do what, Becca?"
Becca sighs softly and leans into Alix's touch, laying her hand over Alix's. Leaning in and connecting their lips in a soft kiss, letting out a soft sigh when Alix kisses her back. Gently pinning her up against the counter, Becca slowly starts to deepen the kiss holding Alix as physically close as she could. Alix tilts her head to the side and lets out a soft moan when Becca starts to kiss down her neck. They both groan when a phone starts to vibrate on the counter. Becca whispers between kisses, "let it go to voicemail".
Alix groans when she hears it vibrating again, "Baby it's probably my mom".
"She can wait, this can't" she whispers against her lips, kissing her deeply. Alix slowly pulls away and places quick kisses on Becca's lips.
"Two minutes"
Becca groans softly, placing soft nibbles and kisses on Alix's neck as she answers the phone. Sliding her hands down and picking Alix up, pinning her to the wall. Alix chuckles softly and wraps her legs around Becca's waist.
"Hello?"
Alix bites her lip to quiet a moan as Becca kisses her neck.
"This is Alix", letting out a soft hum, "Becca is busy at the moment, can she call you back?"
Alix pulls the phone away from her ear and looks at the phone. It isn't hers, it's Becca's. Bringing it back to her ear and asking, "Can I ask who is calling? Chris?"
Becca immediately stops kissing Alix's neck and stiffness up. Alix slides back down and stands up, looking at Becca confused.
"Mhm, I will tell her that you called'
Alix hangs up the call and hands Becca her phone, she takes it and looks at her.
"I can explain-"
"Chris called...you should probably call him back. It sounded important"
She pushes past Becca and walks back over to the counter. Becca grips the phone and curses silently, looking over at Alix as she pinches the bride of her nose.
"Al-"
"Don't . You don't get to call me that anymore"
Becca walks over to Alix and tries to catch her eye.
"Chris...as in the guy who cheated on you?" Alix asks her softly. When she doesn't respond, Alix looks at Becca with a bewildered look.
"He cheats on you, so what? You get him back by cheating on him, with me?"
"Alix that's not it at all"
She moves away when Becca goes to reach for her. Becca watches as Alix starts to make the connection.
"We can't ...wait. Is that why you've been avoiding me all week?"
"Alix-"
"Oh my god", looking at Becca with shock and disgust, "last night" Alix shakes her head and runs her fingers through her hair.
"Baby please. Just let me explain-"
Alix clenches her jaw and looks at Becca, and points her finger at her, "Do not call me that. Don't 'baby' me".
Closing her eyes as she pieces it all together, gripping the counter as she starts to feel dizzy.
"Are you dating him...?"
"It's complicated"
Rebeccas sighs frustratedly and runs her fingers through her hair. Watching as her phone lights up with another call.
"Just tell me the truth" Alix pleads.
Rebecca looks at Alix and sighs, "It's complicated".
"Complicated?! How is this complicated?! It is literally 'yes' or 'no'. Are you dating him?"
"I-" She stops and looks down then looks up, seeing Alix's eyes feel with tears.
Alix shakes her head and looks down, sighing as she wraps her arms around herself, "was any of it real? Or was I just someone you fucked?"
Rebecca sighs and stands up grabbing her jacket and keys.
"Becca?" Alix asks softly.
She snaps, "Damnit Alix!" she sighs and looks at Alix feeling her heart breaking "What do you want me to say?!"
"The truth Becca!"
Rebecca groans and looks at Alix then walks to the door, opening it "Yes, I'm dating him and no, nothing we had was real. You were just...*sighs*
"Get out" Alix points to the door, "GET OUT!"
Rebecca looks at alix then shuts the door behind her, leaving Alix standing in the middle of her living room.

Becca sees Alix completely spaced out, softly snapping her fingers, Alix jumps slightly and looks at the woman front of her.
"Are you okay?", Becca asks softly.
Alix swallows and nods, "I'm fine".
"Al-" she sighs softly, scanning Alix's features.
"Did you hear what I said?"
Letting out a slow breath, Alix shakes her head softly.
"Where did you go?" Becca asks softly
When Alix doesn't respond, Becca reaches up and rubs her cheek, making her sigh softly.
"Alix", speaking softly, "we need to talk about what happened that night."
Alix reaches up and cups Becca's cheek, lightly rubbing her bottom lip with her thumb. Becca places a soft kiss on it as Alix sighs softly. Closing the distance between them, Alix kisses Becca softly, whispering against her lips, "finish what you started that night"
"Alix..."
"Please" she pleads softly.
Becca kisses Alix slowly, pulling away and laying her forehead on hers.
"You need to know the truth" she whispers softly.
Alix groans softly against Becca's lips, shaking her head.
"What I want is for you to finish what you started that night-"
"I want to" she sighs softly, "but I need to tell you the truth first".
"Becca I don't want the details-"
"I lied"
Alix pulls away from the embrace and looks at the woman in front of her confused.
"You lied...about what?"
"All of it"
Alix searches Becca's face, trying to find any hint that she may be lying now. What did she lie about 5 years ago and why was she telling her now?