Heartless Love (GXG) (StudentxProfessor)

Chapter 19

Becca lets out an annoyed sigh and redials Alix's number, listening as it just rings. "Come on Alix, answer your phone".
'Hi you've reached Dr. Taylor-'
Groaning softly, Becca ends the call, holding her head in her hands as she leans against the island. Her mom walks over, and hums as she sips on a tea.
"Still not answering?"
"No", Becca sighs.
"Maybe the 13th call will do the trick"
"Mom" Becca looks at her mom with an annoyed expression.
"You don't like it, do you?"
"Like what?"
"Being pushed away"
Mrs. Blake sips her tea and hums, looking at her daughter, "Rebecca darling, I'm going to say something. And you might not like it, but it needs to be said".
Becca looks down at the phone then back up at her mom and hums softly. Sitting her tea down, Mrs. Blake takes a breath then says, "You're an idiot".
Letting out a short chuckle and shaking her head, "Gee thanks mom. That's exactly what I needed to hear".
"It's true. You come clean and tell her everything, admitting you still have feelings. And then you specifically tell her you don't want her to make accommodations for you in her life. But yet you get hurt when you find out that she has job offers that might take her places"
"That's not-"
"Yes it is. Watching your face drop when she told you the different places, then watching her face drop. Becca your reaction hurt her. She is willing, or rather, was willing to try and make whatever you two have work. But you got in your own head and started to push her away again"
Becca lets out a low groan and holds her head as her mother continues. "Only this time, Alix isn't giving you a chance to push her away. You need to pull your head out of your ass. Either go and talk to her, or let her go"
"Mom she doesn't want to talk to me"
Mrs. Blake sighs and shakes her head, "I don't want to talk to you right now either, and here I am".
Becca looks up at her mom then back down and sighs, "I told her not to make any accommodations for me, because if she leaves again, it'll kill me. Having to push her away last time, broke me in ways that I didn't think were possible..."
"So go tell her that. If you don't, you're going to regret it"
Letting out a soft sigh Becca looks at her mom and nods.

*at the house*

El finishes her pizza and lets out a satisfied hum, "Listen, I seriously think we should consider getting a giant house together. I could get used to Alix's cooking again".
Shay and Alix let out chuckle and shake their heads. El smirks and nods, "You know you miss living with me".
"Oh we miss having the free entertainment", Shay quips.
Alix gets up and takes the empty plates to the kitchen, and loads the dishwasher. When she's out of earshot, El leans over to Shay. "Okay, so whats the count?"
Shay reaches over and taps Alix's phone, humming softly, "13"
"Damn...She's persistent, I'll give her that. And if what she told Alix is true...I really can't hate her. I mean what she did, was a BITCH move, but I get it".
Sighing softly, Shay peeks over to make sure Alix is busy, "I don't know what's worse" looking back at El, "Alix hiding away in a lab to hide the pain, or this".
El looks at Shay confused then peeks over the couch into the kitchen. Chuckling softly as she looks at Shay, "Both aren't great. But I'm not mad at the fact that Alix is making cookies right now".
Sipping her wine, Shay hums, looking at Alix then El. El looks back with raised eyebrows, "What?"
"I have a plan but you're going to have to trust me. Alix might hate us, and you might not get any cookies".
El gasps softly and looks at Shay, "Okay, first off, rude. Second off, I'm in".
"Call me. I can pretend it's my husband calling me. Then I'll sneak out" mumbling as she rolls her eyes, "and tell B to come over and fix this".
Nodding and humming, "I like it. I hate it, but I like it".
Taking out her phone, El calls Shay. Alix looks over when she hear Shay's phone ringing, "Aw does hubby wubby miss you?"
"Probably", Shay chuckles and takes her phone, heading outside, giving El a look. She shrugs and sips her wine, whispering, "good luck".

Shay sneaks out onto the porch and shuts the sliding door, peeking in as El gives her a thumbs up. Sighing softly she dials the number, listening as it rings.
'Hello?'
'I'll make this short and sweet, because Alix doesn't know I'm doing this. Get your ass over here, now, and fix this'
'I'm pulling in now'
'Wait..what? You're here?'
'Mhm. Are the cookies in or out of the oven?'
'How do you know she's making cookies?'
'She bakes when she's stressed or upset'
Shay rolls her eyes, 'Looks like she just pulled them out of the oven'
'Okay'
Shay hangs up the call and waves at El, getting her attention. El nods gets up, yawning and stretching. Alix chuckles and looks over at her friend, "hope you're making room for cookies El".
"Oh you know it", patting her stomach.
Alix chuckles and smiles softly as she plates the cookies, looking at El confused when she hears a knock on the door.
"Are we expecting any visitors?"
"Might be Shay's husband. I think he was planning on surprising her"
Alix makes a gross face, making El laugh. She walks over to the door and opens it, finding Becca. El lets her in and shuts the door behind her.
"El, who is it?"

El hums softly as she walks a couple steps in front of Becca, "Well, I'll let you two to it, or at it".
Alix looks up and looks at El confused then looks over and sees Becca. "Remember, House Rules: No sex in the kitchen", El tries to snag a plate of cookies as she walks away. Alix lightly smacking her hand and giving her a look, "This" motion towards Becca," its low...even for you two"
"All is fair in love and war", El kisses Alix's cheek and snags a plate of cookies as she scurries away. Alix lets out an annoyed sigh as she looks at Becca.
"Why are you here?"
"Because we need to talk, and I need to apologize...again"
"You've been doing a lot of that lately", Alix lightly throws the towel on the counter, leaning back against it and crossing her arms.
Becca sighs and takes off her jacket, hanging it on the back of the chair. "Just hear me out before you kick me out"
"You have", looking at the clock, "two minutes"
"I'm an idiot"
"We finally agree on something", Alix mumbles.
Becca takes a couple steps closer as she continues, "I'm sorry for how I reacted when you told us about the research opportunities. Those are amazing opportunities and I'm truly excited for you and so proud of you. If I could go back and change how I reacted, I would"
"But you can't"
"Alix-"
Alix shakes her head and looks down, letting out a short chuckle then looking up at woman in front of her, "You need to make up your mind, whether or not you want to be in my life or not. Because" motioning between them, "I'm not doing this back and and forth thing. I deserve better, Bec"
"I know you do, and I want to be in your life Alix I really do"
Becca stands in front of Alix, and looks at Alix then down.
Alix sighs and braces her hands behind her on the counter, "What are you so afraid of?"
Sighing softly, Becca looks up at Alix, "Losing you...again".
Alix scans Becca face looking for any hints that she might be lying or hiding something, only she doesn't.
"Alix" Becca sighs softly and looks down.
"Look at me" Alix says softly.
Becca takes a deep breath and looks up, locking eyes with the woman in front of her, "Losing you last time, broke me in ways I didn't think was possible. And if I lose you again...it might kill me. That's why I asked for no special accommodations...because I thought if I kept some distance between us, maybe it wouldn't hurt so bad when you left again".
Alix just stares at the woman in front of her, letting what she said sink in. After a few moments, Becca sighs softly, "Please say something"