I finally changed my phone wallpaper after 6 months. Then when I tried to add one widget I almost had a fucking panic attack because the apps moved around and I couldn't change it back. While on call with my best friend.
My bestie calmed me down though but when he suggested maybe's it's time for an actual change I freaked out again.
This happens with everything. I can't change a single thing and if I do, it will never be the fucking same again. I eat the same things everyday, I wear the same clothes (excluding my school uniforms), even the way my books are organized can only be in order that can only make sense to me.
I'm not sure if this is ocd, autism, or whatever, I'm freaking out.
Why can't things just stay the same?
