My mom came into my room and started crying, saying that I don't hug her enough.
But tHEN when I asked if I could hug her, she said "NO." YET AFTERWARDS, SHE YELLED AT ME FOR NOT GIVING HER A HUG.
I explained to her that I asked her first because I know I don't like being touched when I'm stressed THEN HER CONSERVATIVE ASS SELF SAID "yOU SHOULDN'T ASK FOR MY pErMiSsIon, tHaT's A wOkE tHiNg. WE ARE MOTHER AND DAUGHTER, WE DON'T HAVE TO ASK FOR pErMiSsIon."
WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL
OH GOLLY GEE, I GUESS THIS IS THE REASON SHE'S NEVER ASKED FOR MY PERMISSION TO HUG ME DURING PANIC ATTACKS THEN, HUH???? OR EVEN EVER.
"oh no I don't need PERMISSION to touch you, I'm your mOtHeR."
Maybe this is why my mom never knocks either, huh. That just means my grandma's just cooler though, because SHE knocks since she literally slays like omggggg.
Seriously though wtf is my life anymore. I get yelled at for not hugging her and yelled at for being considerate when ASKING to hug her. Why tf is lifeeeeeee.
I'm going to bed now. I can't do anything right anymore. I just want to be alone.
