Doubting Love (sonadow)

chapter ten

"And here we are!" Shadow smiles brightly with his hands wide open, showing off his room which looked the exact same as before.

I chuckled and rolled my eyes while walking to his bed and just plopped myself there. There was another awkward silence which seems like it lasted hours until Shadow finally spoke.

"So.. what cha wanna do?" He asked politely as he looked at me.

"Hey I'm back and I got.." A white bat, who looked a few years older than Shadow, barged into his room. "Oh sorry! I didn't know you had company~" She said as she moved her eyebrows up and down at Shadow and he blushed. At that point, I was so confused on what was happening.

"Sorry honey, I ruined your make out session with my brother right? Anyways, my name is Rouge and be careful with my brother, he's quite a playboy~" She warned me as she walked off and closed the door.

"Sorry about that.. she can be really annoying at times.." He apologised as he put his hand behind his head to scratch it in embarrassment.

I stared into space as the words "make out session" that Rouge said kept replaying in my mind. Slowly the kiss that me and Shadow shared the other night also replayed in my head. I only realised that I was blushing when Shadow mentioned it. Then, I blushed even more due to embarrassment so I shook the weird thought away.

Shadow and I played some video games and shared some laughter together but suddenly the words "he's quite a playboy" from Rouge replayed in my head. I frowned at the thought of Shadow using me to get over someone or he was only flirting with me for fun.

At that point, I really wanted to leave. Being near Shadow made me feel some awful feeling suddenly. In the middle of the game, I stood up and told Shadow that I wanted to go home. He looked at me with a confused look but suggested that he walked me home again like the last time. This time, I felt sick to my stomach and I mumbled "no, I'll walk myself home."

Shadow looked really confused and I, myself didn't know what suddenly happened and why I was distancing myself from my crush. I don't know how Rouge's words really affected me that much, maybe I just didn't want to be heart broken again like how I felt after breaking up with Sally.

I walked home silently with my earpieces on with music and hands in my pockets. It was quite late at night and for some reason didn't bother to run home quickly for dinner. I was replaying all the moments I had with Shadow and suddenly realised that it might be true that he was just playing with my feelings.

I shed a few tears before reaching home. I ignored the nags my parents exchanged with me after I only walked into the house at 9pm when I promised to be home before dinner. After they were done, I just silently walked back up to my room and flopped myself onto my bed.

I really wanted to text someone about this situation but I didn't know who could help. I was already quite tired so I just fell asleep without my night routine and I hoped that I'd feel better when I wake up.

Shadow's POV
What the heck is happening? I wondered. Sonic just stood up of nowhere and asked to go home.. most importantly, he didn't want me to walk him home? Maybe I said something that offended him, or he remembered something traumatic. I don't think bothering him by text would help so I just left him alone for the next hour or two.

Within the 1-2 hours, I went to talk with Rouge.

"What happened? Why did blue suddenly walk out? Wasn't he supposed to stay for dinner?" She asked.

"I don't know either, he didn't give me an explanation on why he wanted to leave. Furthermore, he didn't want me to walk him home.. I'm a little worried that I might've said something to upset him." I said as I sighed.

"Maybe you did say something, cause normally you don't think before commenting on something haha."

"Yea but this time I care about what I've said. Sonic isn't just someone I want to play with, I actually feel comfortable and happy when I'm with him. I don't want to hurt him.."

Rouge raised an eyebrow, knowing that most of the time I always say things like that when I'm dating someone and then break up with them only a few months after. She just rolled her eyes and went back to the kitchen to finish cooking dinner.

Those few hours without Sonic, especially when he doesn't want to talk to me, sucked. I kept on thinking about him and wondering whether I should text him or not. Until I couldn't handle it anymore and I texted him.

Me: 'hey, what happened? im worried and i wna know..'

But no reply, and he hasn't been online for quite some time so I assumed that he was asleep. I quickly ate my dinner and fell asleep too. Determined to make it up to him in school the next day.