Through The Veil「 The Veil Trilogy Part Ⅱ 」✔

[40] Obligation

It's never easy to lose a loved one.

And even though things had been quite complicated between me and Sirius with the whole time travel incident in my fourth year and the memory charm incident in my fifth, this year we had finally started afresh as friends.

This year, I had some assurance that things would be better, that Sirius would finally be declared innocent and that he would be able to live his life like any other wizard. But before any of that could happen, his recklessness became the end of him, just like I feared it would.

If only he hadn't gone to the Ministry with the Order, if only Bellatrix hadn't stunned him, if only someone else had been able to save him...

But what's the use of dwelling in what-ifs? 

It can't change what has happened now.

I can only imagine how terrible Harry must be feeling at the moment. He could be blaming himself for getting tricked by the Dark Lord and I know how awful that feeling is; knowing that you are in some way responsible for whatever occurred.

That you could have done something to stop it but weren't able to. The helplessness and guilt that came along with it was unbearable.

It was the same feeling I had whenever I saw those terrible visions.

And the last vision I had had was still playing on repeat, making my head hurt.

Sirius meant a lot to me but I couldn't share that with anyone other than Moony. No one else knew about the time travel, not even the twins. It made me feel sick just thinking about how I would face the others and pretend as if everything would be okay soon.

No one other than Moony would be able to understand why I was so distraught by Siri's death... What would I do?

At that moment, I just didn't want to leave the Room of Requirement. 

Ever.

"Kat..."

I heard a voice calling me and though I didn't bother looking up earlier, when a hand gently shook me by the shoulder, I decided to see who it was.

Only Moony would know the exact details to recreate the Marauders' Lair in the Room of Requirement but he wasn't at Hogwarts. So who else could have come there behind me?

I had been resting my head on my knees as the tears were falling uncontrollably. So before seeing who was there in front of me, I wiped my eyes and then looked up.

Soft grey eyes and a flash of platinum blonde hair was the only thing I could see before everything got clouded by the tears again.

The only person I know who had grey eyes and blonde hair was... Malfoy?

But why would he come following me to the Room of Requirement? Why would he even care?

I have never been anything but horrible to him but for some reason, he always finds me each time when I am at my lowest.

"I don't know what to say to you and I certainly don't want to make you feel worse," I caught his voice and it seemed as if he had been saying something before that too but I couldn't hear due to the shock, "but please... Don't hurt yourself. Don't blame yourself for this..."

My head and my heart were both a mess and I certainly didn't know if he was there or merely a confusing hallucination. So I didn't say anything to him, perhaps I thought he would vanish if I ignored him for long enough.

Besides, everything was already quite muddled up.

"Everyone is looking for you," he spoke up again, and surprisingly, he was being gentle, "You should go to the hospital wing."