THE TRINITY

33.

STORMI

"When are you going to tell me what happened?" Mel asks as I lay in the same spot in her bed that I've been for a week.

"There's not a whole lot to it. He lied about who he was. He showed me his true self." I say staring at the laptop with a show playing that I'm not even watching. I'm curled up in the blanket and my whole body feels numb.

"Okay get up" Mel yanks the cover and I snatch it back "Hey" I whine.

"Stormi Olivia Daye. You've been in this bed for a week, you've been skipping class to sulk and you haven't showered in two days. Get your ass up." Mel ordered.

"I just want to lay here and rot." I say in a monotone voice.

"Well I won't allow it. Get showered. Brush your teeth, get dressed. We are going out tonight." she orders.

"I don't know how I feel about going out. I could run into Landon or Noah or Myles or Tori or Austin or anyone else I don't want to see."

"NOW!" she shouts smacking me with a pillow.

"Okay okay" I roll my eyes and sit up. I almost faint from all the blood rushing to my head after laying down for so long. I slowly pull myself up and make my way to the bathroom. I stopped crying a couple days ago and just went completely numb. I don't feel anything. At all.

I looked myself over in the mirror as I waited for the water to heat up in the shower. It's the first time I've seen myself in a few days. My eyes are lined with dark circles, my face is pale, my hair is a rat's nest, my lips are dry and I look worse than I have in a very long time.

I hate myself. How did I trust him so easily? How did I let myself fall for it? I'm so stupid.

I decide to stop staring and I climb into the shower. The same thoughts I always had rush back like they never left.

No one will ever love you.

He was using you.

You're just a liability.

You're fuckable.

You're a job.

What do you know about relationships? Your boyfriend cheated on you with your best friend.

"Shut up" I mumble to myself pressing my forehead to the wall and start to cry again as the shower pelts down onto the back of my head.

Knocks on the door withdrew me from my thoughts.

"Come in" I sniffled knowing it's Mel. She checks on me every time I shower. She's probably worried I'm going to start cutting myself again.

"Oh honey" her face falls once she sees me crying again.

"You want me to help you wash your hair?" she offers and I just nod. I don't know what I would do without her.

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After we were ready Mel basically dragged me to a frat party. She said she wasn't bringing Beau so it would just be us girls. I sulked for the first 20 minutes we were here but after a couple mixed drinks and a few shots I felt great.

I walked back up to the bartender with Mel by my side and ordered a jack and coke. This is the first time I've been to a frat party with a bartender. And it's free!

"Jack and coke?" Mel looked at me confused.

"Oh yeah, I finally tried cola the other day. Figured I'd give it a shot with Jack!" I yell over the music. I take the drink and thank the girl making the drinks.