*:･ﾟHard To Love ･ﾟ:*

CHAPTER 2 - falling behind

KOU
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"Alright class, I will see you all tomorrow. Great work today and I'm looking forward to the rest of the school year! Make sure you all have your cameras with you whenever you arrive, as we will begin work immediately."

Shit, I don't even own a camera. I went into all of this blindly all because I wanted to be closer with Sousuke.. even though it's all certainly blown back into my face at this point. There's no doubt in my mind that he totally hates my guts.

I could feel my eyes follow Sousuke as he got up and began to pack his things, so I hurried to do the same so that I wouldn't lose him—even though I'd see him in a bit anyway since we're living together in a dorm.

My entire class period was basically spent examining Sousuke. I could only catch myself thinking about all the things we did together before he had his memory completely wiped. He had hardly changed looks wise from a few months ago, but his personality was totally different. It must be because I made the absolute worst first impression on him known to man.. either that or he's just an asshole like this to everyone he first meets.

Does that mean I received some sort of advantage back then? I can't recall him being this bitchy, but that stupid brother of toilet-breath could also have something to do with it.

I watched as he dusted his baggy jean shorts off and took the lead to the door, and I wasn't much further behind.

That's another thing, his style has changed significantly. Even if we did start going out again, I'd look like a total loser next to him.

"Yo dude, so I was thinking—" I mutter as I adjust my backpack straps on my shoulders, Sousuke's eyes meeting mine as we both make our way out the door. "You were wanting to get a tv, right?" "Yeah.. why?" My hand found itself comfortable on the back of my neck in response to a newfound nervous feeling in my chest and stomach. "Uh, well—I kind of need to get a camera.. y'know, for tomorrow." "And?" My face instantly heated up before I looked away, but I could still feel his eyes plastered to the side of my face. "Damn, sorry.. uh—crud.." I then forcefully pulled myself together and looked at Sousuke. "I was thinking we could go to a tech shop and get a television for the dorm and a camera for me so that I'm not frowned upon on our second day tomorrow." "Wait, you're telling me you seriously don't have a camera? Then how come you're in a photography class?" "Well.." The nervous feeling in my torso then grew up into my throat as I tried to think of some sort of phony explanation as to why I don't actually have a camera on me.

It wasn't like I could just tell him I joined this class for his sake, even if it's 100% true. He already thinks I'm some utterly insane moron that has an insanely creepy obsession with him, and that's definitely not a hole that I want to dig deeper for myself.

"It broke the other day when I was packing all my shit for college, and I never got the opportunity to go and replace it." "Damn, are you sure it's not just some break that you can go have fixed? You know it would probably be cheaper to fix it instead of buying an entirely new one, right?" "I mean, yeah.. but it would probably take ages for them to do it or something.." "Good point." Phew, nice save Minamoto. "Anyway, I'm gonna go get some food.. to save yourself from being a lonely and pathetic person, you're free to tag along." "Oh shit, really?" "No. I've had my share of you today, and I want to give myself a break before I have to follow your ass to a tech shop."

Damn, should've known to be honest.

I then filled with disappointment as I watched Sousuke turn around and begin walking away from me. "Okay then, have fun with that I guess! I'll just be here.. uh—yeah, right here." My eyebrows then raised as I watched him stop and turn around to look at me again. "Are you coming or not?" "Huh? But you just said—" "It's called sarcasm you barbarian, come on." My face instantly lit up before I situated my backpack once again so I could rush and catch up with Sousuke. "Sweet! I would've been too lonely to function if you left." "I know, that's why I turned around. I'm trying to leave a good impression on people so I'm feeling a little extra nice."