*:･ﾟHard To Love ･ﾟ:*

CHAPTER 13 - spiderhead

SOUSUKE
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"I think I'll see my mom after school." I look over at Kou as he continues typing his essay on one of the library PCs.

There was a different sort of energy between us now. It was like he was angry, but wasn't totally angry. I was completely unsure if he was still mad at me for my what last night.

"Does this sentence make sense?" Kou backs away from the computer, allowing me to move over and look. I silently read what he typed to myself before nodding and scooting back into the chair that I was seated in. "Cool." He begins typing again as I look down at my nails and pick at them, thinking.

I felt so bad about it all now, and I don't think I'll be going to a party like that again anytime soon. When we were back in the dorm there was a different feeling in the atmosphere, like tension but worse. When we were looking at each other I wanted to kiss him like the many times I've felt like doing so.. but I didn't. I didn't because I was afraid of what would happen between us, especially if I ended up not liking it.

Maybe my mom will have some answers later.

"Hey Kou?" "Hm?" I look over at him before speaking hesitantly. "Can you tell me more about the past?" "This is sudden. Does this have anything to do with last night?" Kou looks at me, pulling his hands away from the keyboard. I then nod and glance down at my hands. "It's just that I was thinking a lot about it last night and this morning." "What is it that you're wanting to know?" I softly sigh and look back over at him. "Like what I was like.. what we did.. what happened." Kou grows silent before turning in his chair and looking at me. He then began telling me everything, all the way from the beginning.

"I was afraid to talk to you at first, and the first time we ever met was on the roof of Kamome. I remember falling in love with you instantly. I loved your whole entire demeanor, mentally and physically. And I still do. You were cocky, but not too cocky, and you always had some bitchy thing to say.. but it always fit." I suddenly lower my eyebrows and quickly object to what he said. "That sounds like how I am now?" "I know, but it was different. You weren't so stuck up." I softly shrug. "I guess so—then what?" "Well, we hung out at my favorite arcade a few weeks after we met.. and this is important because that night you snuck me into your place, and that's where we shared our first kiss." I softly raise my eyebrows. "No way I kissed you.. I would've—" "Remembered. I know. Anyway, your Mom caught us.. but she didn't mind it. Then after that we did all kinds of stuff together, and that was up until my Dad found us out and I had to leave you." I nod a bit. "Now fast forwarding to a couple years ago, we met again at the school festival and I fell in love with you after never really falling out of love with you.. and we eventually got back together." My eyes stay stuck on Kou while he speaks, and I was making sure that I was taking mental notes of everything.. that way I could get some more intel from my mom. "How did we split again?" "Supernatural shit. Tons and tons of supernatural shit. You got all messed up by a pain in my ass, but it was handled. That's how you got the scar through your back and abdomen. A friend of mine jabbed you with it so you were temporarily freed, and my wish was for you to be freed permanently." I glance down at my abdomen before narrowing an eyebrow and looking back up at him. "In return for my wish, you had to have your memory wiped free of me. That's how we got here now." He softly smiles and shrugs before looking at me.

I could tell there was a lot he was missing out, but it was all too.. bizarre to be made up.

It all just makes too much sense. This is way too much to cover.. but the scar is the biggest part. He wouldn't know that unless he's seen it or I've told him and neither of those two things have happened. No one knows about my scar except for my mom, so there's no doubt in my mind that this isn't coincidental.