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Feeling Lonely

For the first time in months, Beth and Viv would be separated for International Duty, but what made it worse was the fact that Beth couldn't be at camp, she was at home. Beth spent most of the day with her girlfriend's hoodie on and with Rona. Beth took her dog out for a walk and walked through the woods where her and Viv went whenever life was being life and going a million miles an hour, this was always somewhere that Beth would be able to lean into Viv and know everything would be okay, but for the first time Beth couldn't, she sat down on the bench and threw the ball for Rona back and fourth for a while, the only thing that disturbed her was her phone started ringing and her girlfriends name and picture lighted up her phone, "Hey baby, where are you?" Viv asked as it was getting dark and Beth wasn't at home, "I just took Rona out for a bit." Beth smiled, "Well I know that's not true, Jen text me asking if I knew where you were because she wanted to come and see you because you hadn't been yourself all day." Viv stated as she rested her head on the head board, "What's wrong mijn liefje?" Viv asked softly, "It's nothing baby." Beth smiled, "Well clearly it is if you're out walking Rona at 10pm." Viv argued back, "Viv it's nothing." Beth said as she stood up and called Rona to head back to the car, when Beth sat in the car she was still on the phone to Viv who was now restoring to guessing what was up, "Beth please tell me, I can't help if you don't tell me." Viv said softly, "Okay fine. I'm not doing great, I feel lonely in the house, literally my whole family is away, Jen's working, Steph's in Australia, Jords and I aren't that close anymore, Laura's gone home for international break." Beth stated she was now sat in the car, "Aw lieverd, I'm sorry I can't be home to give you hugs, I'm sorry I can't be a good girlfriend, I'm sorry that you're on your own, if I could change it and make sure that you were here with me then I would." Viv said on the verge of tears not realising how much of a toll her going away would have on her whilst not thinking that her whole family would be gone, "Viv, you're the most amazing girlfriend, you're my angel, you do everything for me, it's me being silly and not being able to handle being away from you, it's okay." Beth reasoned, "I'm sorry baby, it'll be okay, I'll be home soon. Can you do me a favour and drive yourself home?" Viv asked, Beth nodded her head and connected her phone to the car, when she drove home she and Viv spoke for the ten minute drive, "Viv." Beth smiled as she walked into their shared home, Viv's eyes turned attentive, "Can you stay on the phone with me tonight?" Beth asked, "Of course I can babe." Viv smiled, Beth nodded her head and got changed into her pajamas and then put herself into bed and switched her phone call with Viv to facetime, "There's my beautiful girl." Viv smiled, Beth blushed and turned onto her side, "Hi you." Beth and Viv stayed on the phone all night, "Good night, I love you." Beth mumbled, "Sleep well my love, I love you."

The following morning Viv woke up to her phone still on and Beth asleep, when she looked at the clock in the corner of her screen she realised that she had about 40 minutes left before the hotel stopped serving breakfast, Viv got changed whilst still on the phone, when she went into the bathroom she took her phone off charge and went into the bathroom to wash her face and brush her teeth, when she heard someone groaning, "Morning beautiful." Viv smiled, "You stayed on the phone all night." Beth said her eyes adjusting to the light, Viv smiled, "Of course I did." "Baby, I'm going to have to go down for breakfast, but I've got the day off today, I can call you back later?" Viv suggested, "It's okay baby, don't worry about me, Jen's off today, I'll call you later." Beth smiled, "Okay but Beth if anything changes you know where I am." Viv smiled, "Have a good day, I love you." Beth smiled, "I love you too baby." Viv said as she hung up the phone, she sighed and then left her room for breakfast.

When she got down to the hall most of the girls were already down there, "Where have you been?" Jill asked, "Beth called me last night, not great and we ended up falling asleep at the 3 this morning on whilst on call and then when I woke up she was still asleep, "Awh bless her, is she okay now tho?" Jill asked, concerned for her former teammate, "I think so, Jen's got the day off today apparently so they'll probably do something." Viv smiled at Jill, "Well we've got the day off today Viv, so if you could lock yourself in the room and spend the whole day on call if you have too." Jill smiled, "That's what I told her." Viv laughed. After Viv had eaten, she glanced at her phone which lit up with a picture of Beth, Viv and Rona, and a text message appeared from Jen, 'Hi Viv, I just wanted you to know that Beth isn't herself today, she's quieter than normal, but she won't tell me what's wrong.' Viv sighed and excused herself from the table and headed to her room, she went into her contacts for Beth and called her, "Baby?" Beth smiled at her girlfriend through the phone, "What's wrong?" Viv asked, "How did you?" Beth began to ask confused, "Doesn't matter." Beth lied, "Beth, please tell me." Viv begged, Beth stayed silent, "If you're not going to tell me what's wrong I'll come home." Viv stated, "You don't have to come home, it's nothing." Beth reasoned, "Beth please tell me." Viv smiled, "No because you'll think I'm needy, clingy and you'll end things between us." Beth stated, "Beth please, nothing you can say or do will ever change how I feel about you." Viv said reassuringly, "Okay, for the first time in months we're apart for more than 24 hours, but not only that my family have gone away, and my in laws aren't exactly twenty minutes down the road, Jen's working, Jordans miles away, I just feel alone." Beth cried, "Aw baby, do you want me to come home early?" Viv asked, "No." Beth stated, "You've worked so hard to o be in the team, I'm immensely proud of you Viviane, you're staying." Beth answered, "Beth, I couldn't care less you're more important than anything." Viv smiled, "Viv, I want you to be there and I want you stay in camp." Beth stated, Viv sighed, "Okay baby." Viv answered, "Beth you promise me tho that the second you feel down, you call me I don't care if it's the middle of the night, the middle of the day, whilst I'm in training, I don't care, you call me." Viv stated, "I will I promise." Beth smiled, "Okay, I love you." Viv said, "I love you too, now go back to the girls please." Beth said, Viv nodded her head and hung up the phone.

Over the next few days Viv realised how much she missed Beth herself, she decided that she would go home straight after media on the last day of camp instead of flying home the following day with the rest of the girls who played in England.

The day of media, Viv woke up at 8am and messaged Jen to get her to take Beth out so that Viv could go home and surprise her, then packed her bags and made sure they were all ready for her to leave and then left the room. For the next 5 hours Viv was doing media with whole team. When finally the media was done, Viv quickly grabbed her bags and said bye to the girls and jumped in the taxi for the airport.

When she was about to board the plane she very quickly text Jen to say she was boarding and would be home if all goes smoothly in the next 4 hours. To Viv's delight everything did go smoothly, and when she was in her car driving back home to Beth, she stopped in the shop and bought Beth some flowers and chocolates.

When she pulled up on the drive she was bit confused why Jen's car was here, when she walked in nothing could have prepared Viv for what she saw, her girlfriend was distraught on the sofa, Viv put everything down knelt down in front of her, "Baby what's wrong?" Viv asked as she wrapped her arms around Beth's neck, "Viv." Beth said as she realised that Viv was now in front of her, "I'm here baby girl." Beth smiled and leaned into Viv's embrace, "I'll leave youse to it." Jen whispered to Viv, Viv nodded her head and Jen left. Viv spent a good 5 minutes just holding Beth, "Beth what's up?" I want you to tell me right now." Viv whispered as she kissed the side of Beth's  head, "I just got worked up over nothing." Beth whispered, "It must have been something for it make you like this."  Viv whispered, Beth took a deep breath, "Viv, I saw yours and Lisa's hug and then I read some things online saying that you're made for each other and she's better for you and I don't even come close and it really got me." Beth cried, "Baby, I promise you, it's you. I love you more than life, you're my happiness, my world, my everything. Nothing anyone says or can do will ever change that, it's you and me, forever." Viv kissed the side of Beth's head.

Once Beth had calmed down, they settled down the sofa, Beth's head on Viv's chest and Viv whispering sweet nothings to Beth's ear. Eventually Beth realised that Viv shouldn't be home until tomorrow, "How are you here?" Beth asked as she looked up at Beth, "I know hard this week has been for you and I wanted to be the one to make it better and hold you and make sure you're okay, so I left as soon as media was finished today." Viv smiled, "I don't deserve you." Beth whispered, "Yes you do." Viv smiled, "I love you baby girl." Beth whispered, "I love you more." Viv whispered back.

The following days were spent with Beth and Viv being training partners and never going far from each others side, wherever one went the other one wasn't far behind. During one lunch, Beth was getting her food from the buffet and Viv was sat at the table with hers, "How is she?" Jen asked her voice in a whisper, "She's getting there." Viv whispered as she had a sympathetic smile on her face, "For what it's worth she's been better since you've been back." Jen smiled, Viv blushed and then they were joined with Steph and Beth, "Anyone fancy movie night?" Steph asked, "Sounds great." Jen smiled, Viv looked at Beth, Beth's eyes looked as if she wanted to say yes but also no Viv saw the expression, "Can we let you guys know later? We've agreed to pick Beth's Dad up from the airport." Which was true but that wasn't until 10:30 tonight, "Yeah course." Steph said, Viv smiled, Beth looked slightly relieved that she didn't have to make a decision right now, "Viv can we leave?" Beth asked into Viv's ear, "Sure." Viv stood up, "We're gonna love youse leave youse." They all hugged good bye and then Beth and Viv headed home and spent the remaining time on the sofa, Beth's head on Viv's chest.